I was doing OK...last night I could not sleep, even though I took sleeping pills. Just sick in the stomach all day.

I've been taking sleeping pills since he left, and don't want to get hooked. Also taking St.John's Wort, but I don't think it is doing anything.

My new job's health insurance kicks in this month. I am thinking it may be beneficial to see a doctor and get on something like zoloft. Is this a stupid idea, or could it really help?

We see each other about twice a week, and talk on the phone a couple of times per week as well. Sometimes I am good, and do my best...but I have also broken down in tears several times. I can't help it, even though I know better. I need to stop this. It probably just drives him away.

(I also think HE needs some meds!! He claims since his extensive dental work is now done, he will now see a therapist...I hope and pray he follows through on it...I have reminded him a couple of times...trying not to nag...but he has a habit of not following through on stuff he needs to do.)

just a thought. Smoking cessation classes sometimes prescribe welbutrin to help take the edge off quitting. Your company might even spring for those plus you keep the "depression" medication out of your med records.

meds will level your emotions but they are not happy pills.

There is one HUGE downside with most of the non-habit forming anti-depressants. They take at least a couple of weeks to become effective.

Plus Zoloft and Paxill are known to have negative affects on your sex drive....indeed both are prescribed for treatment of premature ejaculation....there's a real bummer for us betrayed husbands....nothing like your pharmacist thinking you have that problem! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" />

Paxill made me very jittery and I had a hard time sleeping. Zoloft was much better but it too caused sleeping problems.

Wellbutrin has worked quite well in many areas including little sense of being on a drug. Which is the key to matching yourself to the right drug... you really shouldn't feel like you are on one. And with Wellbutrin it has little sexual side affects though in many women it actually increases their sex drive.

StrayCat, do not take the St. John's wort with any RX pills! In fact, your doctor would want you off St. John's for a couple of weeks before taking anything with MAIO inhibiters! This may be the reason for your sick tummy and no sleep!
Meds help! Also, there is absolutely no sin and anyone knowing you take antidepressants!
About 75% of population of adults and some teens are on them. LOL Your boss probably is too.
The most effective one I found we Effexor XR.Zoloft was not very helpful, but then I was in severe depression.
Doctor will also give you something to help sleep at same time,which will not necessarily be a sleeping pill. Maybe something to also help as anti depressant also but does induce drowsiness.

Again, please tell doctor about any herbal remedies you are taking because you are in trouble if you combine them with MAIO Inhibiters.

Since having to treat with meds, I've been so much better, able to cope with things that stressed me before.
Worried about your employer finding out? Federal laws protect your job. My H worked with a manic depressant which is much worse than whay you're experiencing.
Your records for psychiatric doctors are confidential also. It would take an act of God to get those records! Actually, Psychiatric doctor is better at prescribing the meds that help also. Most regular MD's aren't as up on them.
I take Celexa now and Xanax occasionally. The xanax helps me sleep at night. The Celexa is an antidepressant, Anxiety med,much milder than what I took for 5 yrs.
God bless and I know you'll feel better when you can get something. I think you definitely should get off the ST.John's Wort now though so you can take something when prescribed.
LouLou

My Dr put me on Paxill. Wonderful drug, a little touch of a sedative to help me sleep. It has made a world of difference for me. Even my WH says that I am a new woman. Who knew that I'd been depressed for years!! My constant negativity before Paxill was a big contributor to my marriage problems. I don't know how to describe the change, I just see the world as a better place to be.

The sex drive thing....it has increased my libido TREMENDOUSLY. The Dr says it's because I feel good now, and that the negativity in my life was holding my sex drive back. The big O is harder to come by, but still possible. Just takes a little more work.

Thanks to everyone for replying. I appreciate all the comments, as I have never been in this sitaution before.

I'm slowly losing my mind. I just hope I can make it until my insurance starts. I definitely will see a doctor, and I guess will just see what she has to say...maybe she will prescribe something, or maybe she will send me to a therapist. (I don't even care if it's on my records. Right now I am feeling so hopeless, I just want to get through it in any way I can.)

Meds are a lifesaver. Very very important if you have symptoms of post traumatic stress disorder or depression.

Are you crying alot? Losing weight? Can't sleep? Anxious? Possibly thoughts of suicide?

Each person has the right med for them. For me, Celexa didn't work well- depressed my s*x drive and made me very sleepy. Then I tried Serzone and there really were no side effects. So you have to tweak and try different things- don't give up if the first one doesn't work.

Yes to all of the above.

It really doesn't matter what happens to my sex drive, because he isn't coming back. It's over. I just want to try and save myself now.

I stopped the St.John's Wort in anticipation of some help from the doctor next week.