It's very hard to let it go... But it's the best for me and my D. I'm trying to be strong and keep thinking without putting my emotions to float... I'm praying God to help me and clear my mind...and don't let me go back to OM... I think I'm doing better than before... I changed my phone number... and to me that's a lot, because I didn't want to do that before, and even when people where telling me to do so... but now it came out of me... and I did... I don't want to have any contact w/ OM, I want to be strong... I'm trying to find the purpose of my life... trust me it's not easy to let him go... but reallity is that he is not making me any good. Thanks to MB I'm learning and seeing things more clear, I'm opening my eyes to reality, I was focuse in an ilusion, I was in love of an idea, my own idea, what I was looking to have, 'cause I had the necessity of feel loved and Important... and I was thirsty of love and I was trying to find it in some one who at the end hurt me and left my heart empty... One of these nights I said :GOD I CANNOT DO IT ANY MORE... COME AND HELP ME... I didn't wanted to continue living that night... and I'm sure God listen to me... 'cause I'm feeling better and better every day... and I have a weekly session with my IC and It's also helping me a lot... I need help... I'm looking for it, I think I'm moving to the right track...