It's been a REALLY long time since I've been on here or posted. I was just yearning for advice today - my 1 year anniversary is coming up in three weeks and I keep thinking about what an awful year this has been; and here I am in the same situation. Since d-day I have done some of the right things to recover and alot more of the wrong things. The hurdle I can't seem to get over is coming to the realization that H is not going to change, now or probably ever..now, I know that he will only change if he wants to and that I need to work on myself, etc - I have had many therapy sessions talking about just those things, believe me! But, how do you move on?? How do you pick up the pieces and try to heal your shattered heart and life? I come home and look at my H as he is making a wonderful dinner and playing with our D and think this is the way it should have been all along, but then later I'll bolt up in bed next to him after yet another nightmare about H and OW and it seems like that pretty picture is just a lie like all the other lies he told me. I'm young, and attractive, I raised a daughter on my own for a long time, I have a good job and own a condo...how can I be so with it in those ways but continue to live with a man who practically destroyed me??? Enough of the drama, just looking for some input!
Thanks