hi everybody,
last night was my d 6th grade graduation, im on the pto so i helped with the planning and h and i helped with the set up and decorating all day.so for me it was a very important night, my daughter is moving on to jr highand i feel likei deserve a little credit for this too.
so anyway we were there as a family, everybody dressed up, i thought i looked pretty good, i know my kids always do, and h too.
and i was looking around the room to make sure everything was going ok, and guess who walks in!ow!! i saw her and my heart just dropped!! and i felt so hurt! because i know he had to know she was going to b there. i looked at my bil who is a very good friend, and he just said "i saw". i could feel the tears starting,and i was so close to getting up and going into the bathroom to cry,but then i looked around and realised this is something i did i earned the right to sit here and hold my head up high, because everything in this room i had a part in! i work hard for my children all year, for this very reason, to sit back and enjoy watching them take pride in their accomplishments!! and i thought hes here with us! with me! she is sitting over there alone with her family but does she have a man of her own next to her NO!! she sneeks around with mine! i just acted like she was nothing! didnt even mention her, and i walked around with my head held high, while she hid, and tried not to b noticed, we sat up front she was behind us so i knew she had to see us laughing and having a good time, and all the times h would wisper something in my ear, and look at me and smile and laugh. it had to b tearing her apart, i know she was probobly thinking i thought he said he didnt love her.
he said he told her he still would always love me and i would always b his best friend, but she probobly never realised how close we still are, and that we really are best friends. to anyone who sees us together it is very obvious there is still alot between us. no one would even guess that we werent together, and h is thinking of d. so im hoping she went away feeling insecure about his feelings for me, and she had to realise his family would always b there i happened to turn around and i caught her staring at us, with the saddest look i ever saw, i almost felt bad for her, ALMOST.
something that helped me through was remembering how h came to pick us up, and he saw me all dressed up and h followed me in the room as i was fixing my hair, he came up behind me put his arms around me and kissed the back of my neck.i just kept thinking if she only knew!!
what do you al think? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />
