Hi Everyone,

It's been 2 yrs. since I asked H if he had affair. Alot of lies! Followed my gut. Truths came out by drips and drabs but only very small amounts of truths. I kept following my gut and BINGO, I hit the jackpot, I think. I haven't been able to heal or start on a marriage because of all the bull. Confessed of wanting another badly. Thought of leaving me and the kids for her. A certain Saturday still bothers me though. She was a client of his. He told me she wasn't going to be at her place because she didn't like hanging around while anyone was working there. 3 hours later she calls and asks for him. He wasn't home. When I called his cell phone he said he just left her parking lot. She never left orders with doorman and never showed. He waited in her lobby for 3 hours because he wanted to see her and hoped something would happen.

I don't understand how he could say he wanted to leave the kids and myself for her if nothing happened. I was told by H he thought of leaving me before she came along because he fell out of
love but when he admitted he thought about leaving H said for HER!

Am I going crazy and reading into this too much? I can't start a marriage on lies. My gut is telling me it doesn't make sense. Can someone give me some insight please.

Remember: Advice is something you seek, when you already know the answer, but want someone to convince you otherwise. Gut feelings Rock....