Check your email.

Also you did not elaborate on the ability to revive one's conscience (sp?). How do you do it?

Nevermind - disregard. I thought (mistakenly again) you were asking ME to email you. I thought maybe you wanted to curse me out or something without having it censored. My mistake.Oops!

No problem, Diamond! I'm happy to correspond.

You revive your conscience by adhering to its dictates. I've been in your shoes, so I know what it's like to simply fall asleep to how harmful our actions are to others, and even to our better selves. It helps to start acting like you are a better person than you are (which doesn't mean putting on airs or acting superior -- just acting to a standard you don't "feel" at the moment; as this board will show you, "feelings" can deceive). For example, a more compassionate, loving and kind person than you are. God knows I'm trying to do that right now, because part of me wants to kill, kill, kill.

Being in a situation where you've seen how hurtful HIS behavior has been to YOU, you can now realize how someone else might be hurt by yours. It's a window of opportunity, from that perspective.

How do you revive your conscience? My father used to say, in many circumstances, "First, you have to want to." I've often been surprised at how powerful a force "wanting to" is.