I AM SO DONE WITH HIM, I WANT TO SCREAM, HE NEEDS TIME HE NEEDs THIS HE WANTS THIS I'VE DONE THIS ALL THE BULLSH#IT I'VE PULLED OUT OF MY A@#. HE DOES NOTHING WRONG, HE IS SICK OF ALL MY LIES, ETC ETC ETC

What I wouldn't give to be perfect like him, he can go have an A, he can leave every night after seeing the baby, I need to stop hounding him, I need to leave him alone (his quotes) he doesn't know how he feels and he doesn't know what he wants AND I CAN'T TAKE THIS CRAP ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Patience has never been my strong point, but I hate him right now, I hate how he leaves, I hate how he comes by, I hate how he is cold and distant, I hate how he says about the affair he is not sorry he had one BUT sorry he hurt my feelings...what does it matter anymore.

I should leave his a@@ at the doorstep he can rot in hell for all I care now...he is leaving his wife, his home, his daughter and his wife that is pregnant with his child. I hope to God I have a girl, I don't want to bring another man in this world that is remotely like him.

I want to hurt him, I want him to cry every night like I do, I want him to wake up every hour at night like I do, I want him to be lonely and sorry and miserable like I am...He told me he has been honest with me, too honest he said, what the hell is that supposed to mean! Am am his wife for crying out loud!!!!!!!!

He doesn't care about anything but his stupid self, his working out, his career, his damn car, him him him him him him him....

When do I get in the freakin picture? When he is ready? Doesn't he understand that I am human too and I have emotions and feelings and I can't take living like this anymore!!!!

It kills me not to talk to him, even if it hounding, he tells me nothing, he acts like I am a stranger and looks at me with complete and total disgust on his face.

I repluse him and disgust him and disappoint him, what does he think he is - some superhero!

WOW! Some vent!

Sweet1213 you need to calm down. You are Pg, and this kind of feelings and behaving is not doing any good to your future kid.

Can you go to family for a while? Each time your H comes and goes, you feel more terrible!

What about plan A? You think you can do that? I know this is insanity for us, but that is not helping you or him or your M you need to calm down. And ok vent but HERE! not to him!

Try to look for another things to do.You can't keep like this for too long. We know this.

Take care

((((sweet))))
Okay, now do you feel better? You're pregnant and hormones are all over the place, you have a toddler AND you have a husband who had an affair. Girl, you've got your hands full!!

Now. You've got to get a grip here. You've got to get a plan. Have you read the concepts and Questions & Answers here?

You should probably have a counseling session with the Harleys. You need some help. You need someone to advise you who doesn't have the pressures you have right now.

Is your family close by? Is your mother? Moms can be great supporters. How about your best friend? What about church?

So. Do this...
Deep breath.
Read the site.
Call the Harleys.
Get family help.
Get your best friend's help.
Talk to your doctor about your situation.
Pray.

Check back in. Want to make sure you're OK. We care!

I can't say I know how you feel because I am the WS. I do know that on D-Day W and I got in the car because we couldn't talk at home. She hit me and screamed at me. She said words she had never said before. I turned her into a monster. I deserved it... too bad she didn't give me a black eye.
You have many resources and you have a lot of power. You may feel weak and hopless but as Stung said get a grip and come up with a plan. He's talking big now but his head is up his butt and he doesn't have a clue as to what is truley valuable and worth saving.

You are not disgusting, repulsive or a dissapointment. Get support, get a plan, love those babies and most importantly love yourself
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