<small>[ September 19, 2004, 05:25 PM: Message edited by: MakeYourOwnSunshine ]</small>

Hey Sunshine,

Sounds like you had an extraordinarily rough morning. Was this unusually bad, or is it kind of how life is for you these days?

It's normal (and necessary!), but I'd think that for your ex-H to have married OW 2 months ago you'd have had time to see the end coming and get a lot of grief out of your system by now. If today was just a dip in a slowly improving outlook, then that's okay, we all have them. But if you live your life grief-stricken like this every day, I'd suggest you see a counselor and get some help. Maybe anti-depressants would help too.

I know what you mean about his words being in your mind forever. My H's words were "I have some bad news." The sound of those words, where we were, everything is going to be etched in my brain forever. It's been almost 2 years now and I rarely think of that day any more. It should be the same for you, too.

Try to pamper yourself and boost your self-esteem. Go back to school, pursue a hobby you've been putting off, renew an old interest you'd let lie by the wayside. Find an enjoyable form of physical activity. Join some groups or clubs. Keep busy in positive ways.

I'm sorry you had such a hard morning. Hopefully they'll get fewer and farther between until they are nothing but a dim memory.