I left it open last night on purpose too. I was happy to see that you were looking at this site when I got out of the shower, even though you quickly switched pages when you realized I was there <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> I don't want to hide anything from you. I want you to be here! At first I only came here when you weren't here, but I have read so much from COUPLES who both post here and I think it's a good thing. There are a few things I've said here that I'm a little uncomfortable with you reading, but again, I don't want to hide ANYTHING from you.

I know you don't have a lot of time to spend on things like this. I just want you to occasionally read a bit here and maybe post now and then too. Our marriage is the most important thing in the world to me (next to our kids lives) that's why I am here trying to get help fixing us. I really appreciate that you are seeing a marriage counselor with me. But you have to admit that she's not the greatest. I think most of the people here understand this better than she does. I still want to continue with her, but it's not enough right now.

I'm posting this at the worst time! I doubt you will even see it. Well, I'm going to try it anyway.

I know you are afraid that people will tell me to just move on and let go, but if family and friends and people I know couldn't make me believe that our marriage wasn't worth fighting for, I don't think one or two strangers are going to do it.

we are anonymous here. No one knows us or who we are. I like it that way so NO NAMES please <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

I LOVE YOU!

<small>[ April 01, 2004, 04:34 AM: Message edited by: toomanylies ]</small>

Anyone who will tell you to just move on and forget about it is not worth listening to. They have not walked in your shoes. 2 months ago, yes I would have SAID to my H "if you ever cheated on my, that would be it, I would leave you"...It is unimaginable to KNOW what BS's go thru unless you live the life they are living. You reallize HOW MUCH you truly LOVE your H and you will fight until the end to save that marriage. Look at all you have together. Good times, bad time, kids, memories. That is why I like this site. We have all been there done that and are doing that. We are all in the same boat here. No judgements, just truth.

I do hope Mr. toomanylies gets some great advice here. My H posts here and he looks forward to reading and posting every day. The things that peole say to him really make him think.

I hope that you will take that first step Mr. toomanylies and come here for some anonymous support. We are here to help you! And you have a wonderful W there waiting for you! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

I sent the link of my thread to WH, and copy some posting to him in e-mail. I too wish he can come here. Just open your heart and listen. But I don't know he is here or not.

kudos to you for thinking of this! sending a message to your H this way. I hope it will have an impact.

I'm sitting here wondering what in the world WP would say or think, were she given a pointer to my thread. And I just shake my head and think that she would throw some kind of tantrum about something, and again find ways to be rotten to me.

I don't need that anymore. If she ever finds and reads what I have to say here, she is welcome to. But be punished for it? No. Not anymore.