Hello all,
15 months ago I found my self getting attracted to a man in my community. I was very suprised and I fought hard against it but it grew stronger and stronger. We are both married with children. I suspected he felt the same. We never voiced our feelingsout to each other but it was there and I do not think the people around were fooled. I had my head in clouds about this guy and would have done anything for him. My husband complained about our closeness and I would try to curtail it and would succes for a short while. Eventually after a serious complain 5 months ago, I cut the guy off and withdrew emotionally. I thought I was getting the hang of it until some weeks ago. This time, I found myself really without restraint, also wanting him sexually, very badly. Up until then ,the physical atraction had been strong but never with this intensity.
A few days ago, after a gathering where we met, I found later that night that I was not so crazy about him anymore. All of a sudden,,He was just a nice guy! I didnt have the urge to see him all the time (I was ALWAYS thinking about him the last 15months)or talk to him. Infact the last time I saw him,I spoke to him more out of concern as I am worried about hurtig his feelings. I dont know what to do WRT him or myself. I know I had fought against this feeling for so long yet, I feel like Ive had a crash, I am hanging in midair, lost , Like I've lost something, like I'm incomplete, unbalanced, lost my orientation. So sudden, unexpected... HELP! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" />
