I saw my husband yesterday.
When I asked him, he said yeah, he is having sex with her. He says they are not in love, she is a good friend, and that they have sex when they feel like it. That I am too far away and he has no way to get here because he has no car, and she is right there.
He said having sex with her is like masturbating, that I am better in bed, better body etc., but he needs her to drive him around and stuff, and he thinks of her as a very good friend. They are using each other?
I asked him to call his daughter, he hasn't seen her or called her for a month. He said "yeah, ok"
I feel sick. Just a month ago or so, he was here, and we were together, I did everything for him, I gave myself to him, completely. And he went with her.
I wanted to ask him, does she do the things with you that I do? Does she tell you she loves you? Do you say it to her?
I think its time for me to tell him that I love him, but I can't see him anymore. He has to know that he has lost his wife and daughter. There is a price to pay for the way he is living. I can't bear to think of him being with me in that way, and then going to her.
I asked him, "why didn't you call me? I was waiting., I wanted to be with you."
He said "I wouldn't use you in that way".
He told me he missed me. He is feeling very sorry for himself because of this car thing, no license, and it is his excuse for everything.
A coupld of years ago he loaned the car to a friend, who got drunk and smashed it up and now he is being sued for $13,000 for damages. He is furious with that man.
He blames everything on this friend, but he is doing the same thing with this woman. He is giving her himself, and losing his family. Maybe when he realises that she has taken away his life, he will see what a fool he has been.
But maybe it is too late.
I told him how unhappy our daughter is, how rejected, and that maybe she would be better off in a foster home, getting counseling and stuff. He said if I do that he iwll move in with this woman and sue for custody. So last night I wrote a letter giving guardianship to my older daughter, in case anything happens to me. I don't want him to have her, or for her to ever be near that woman.
I think I should get a lawyer and arrange for support payments and restrict visitation. I don't know how the laws work here. I have no money for a lawyer.
I am praying about all this. I think I am in shock.
