As a nurse and a parent of a child with epilepsy I have never heard of stress causing seizures. Maybe a stroke caused you seizures and all your abnormal lab results.Suspicious since you say you say you still have slurred speech. Bleeding in your brain from a small stroke could cause those seizures.

If your doctors are giving you the "stress" excuse for a serious event such as you experienced you need to RUN to a MAJOR medical center in a big city for a second and maybe even third opinion.

What's your blood pressure like? That first CAT scan they did, should have shown any tumors if they did a good one with small enough cuts. Sounds like inferior medical care to me. Of course JMHO.

<small>[ May 06, 2004, 11:03 AM: Message edited by: mthrrhbard ]</small>

You have my best wishes for a full recovery. The whole event is obviously very frightening.

That said, I am adding my 2x4 to the stack. I was diagnosed with breast cancer about a year after D-Day. I truly believe the stress of our situation was the cause of my illness. That said, when my H expressed his pain over causing my cancer, I stopped him in his tracks. First of all, I allowed myself to react the way I did to H's As. I allowed myself to wallow in my own little pity party for months. Poor little me! Look what big bad H made happen. Bullsh&%!

It doesn't matter what caused my cancer. I am going to recover because I am taking care of myself. My H is loving and helpful, but I am ultimately responsible for how I REACT to the events of my life.

This A didn't 'happen' to you. You chose it and you chose an unstable woman to do it with. Take responsibility for what you have done, and make the healthy choices you need to make.

Time to send her an email, or type out a letter.

Your excuses are hurting you, your M, and your W.

Thanks, all my friends, for your kind advice. You might notice my LOG IN changed. Don't ask me why, but the MB WEBSITE MONSTER ate my password and I could not log back in for the last day or so.

I don't want to blame anyone for the way I reacted to all this. I know I screwed up. I knew for an entire year that I was banging a lunatic who was emotionally unstable. I always knew it would end badly, but there is no justification for what OW and OWH are doing to me. If they spent more time trying to fix themselves and less time turning me into some villian, maybe they would be better off.

My speech is not slurred anymore. I think it was from all the Dilantin and valium they pumped into me. I am still utterly exhausted. And imagine the worst headh ache in the world. I never really got head ahces in my life. Maybe 5-6. Nothing much to rememmber. Well, this HURTS.

W and I are going away for a few days. If I feel better, I'll tell her this weekend, but she won't be getting me at my prime. Still difficult to concentrate.

As for INFERIOR MEDICAL ADVICE. Maybe. I don't trust doctors anyway. Some of the dumbest people I have met in my life have been doctors and lawyers! Hey, some of them are even here at MB!

Anyway, thanks for everyone's kind advice. I appreciate it. To think hat I almost died. And for what? Certainly I would have been no hero.