Ysterday started a little rough, but today I got something from W that I never expected.
Let's start w/yesterday. W calls me at work to let me know she had rec'd a call on her cell that came up "Private #" which often was the OM (so I couldn't get his #). We had agreed that she would reject the call so the caller would know that the she did not want to talk to him. But instead, yesterday she answered. It was a wrong #. She called to tell me at work to tell me what happened. I asked, why did you answer, it coulda been OM. She said, B/c I miss him and want to hear his voice. Pretty damn honest, and painful to hear. I thanked her for her honesty, and told her that if she talks with him again, even if he calls her, it sets us way back. W is here in the M, but just barely. We talked more after the kids went to bed, she is still conflicted, not sure if she can stay with me b/c of all that has happened. OM cannot get a divorce and if he is caught seeing another woman while seperated he will get creamed in the D (Italian law). So basically, he killed the relationship outta nessicity.
So today I had to come home early to get ready for a doctor's appt, and W suggested we eat lunch at home b/c kids would be in school and we could talk. I get home, W has already made me a sandwich, and a drink, and there is a card next to my plate. The pre-printed part inside says"I'm sorry." Then she writes, "I'm trying very hard. Maybe we should try to meet for lunch once a week after (youngest daughter) goes to school? Love, _. I am a guy that is pretty rough, very light natured, but that card brought tears to my eyes. I love that she is feeling guilty, I know that is not right, but I hate being the only one in pain here.
I guess there no advice needed, but I wanted to share my good news. These boards are pretty grim sometimes, hopefully I can continue to post good stuff.
