Hi All-

I finally had a minute where I can sit down and put some thoughts down.

I started my new job on Monday. I have to say that I'm having withdrawal from being home with the kids. The job is a dream chance for me though so I try and weigh the bad with the good.

I'm feeling very pleased too because once again, I am able to support myself and the kids without any assistance. It's really nice not having to worry about where my next rent check will come from. The BIGGEST releif is that I now can pay for my share of dS's legal guardian's fees.

I am commuting an hour and 20 minutes one way. That's probabbly the hardest part of all of this. Sure, relocation would solve the problem but DS is FINALLY in a place where he is happy. I'm not certain if I want to pull him further away from his dad.
His guardian ad litem told me that the town that I am now working in has one of the BEST school systems in the state! He was actually encouraging me to relocate! I was a bit suprised by that. For now, I will take it one day at a time and see what develops. I stillhave my eye out for any job that would be closer to home but that's okay for now.

My company consists of 4 employees. The product is a portable infrared spectrum detector. Basically user end applications include forensics, mineral deposit detection, and other homeland security applications that I am happy to say that I can contribute to even in the smallest way. So far, in just a week, I have offered several ideas for improvement in processes and in the product. The people there welcome my ideas enthusiastically and give me the room to explore them.

All in all, life is pretty good.

I'll update again about the custody stuff in the near future...

Hugs-

Can you discuss the idea of relocating with your DS, to see what he thinks of it? Or is that something that he shouldn't have any say in?

Thanks for the update kily! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> Be sure to post when you have the time... which sounds like it'll be pretty limited for the next little while, as you get accustomed to your new schedule.

Karen

Congratulations. I'm proud of you. Take your time in thinking about relocating. Don't make too many changes all at once.

Yeah Kily!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Howdy!

Great news, kily! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

...I think I've used one of those gizmos a couple of times. First was when I was working with my dad 20 years ago testing big electrical circuits for hotspots. The other time was 2 image active lava flows in Hawaii.

-ol' 2long

2long-

You've used them? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

I can't wait to learn about the optics. I finally was able to see the prisms yesterday. Really great stuff for physics lovers (and electronics geeks too!)

All others-

Thanks for your thoughts and love...

Topie life is getting interesting. I'll have time to post during the week.

Hugs.

Yay Kily! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

-ALS

Hey ALS! No fair! No "hit and run" posts allowed!

Now, you have 2 give us your latest news! Start a new thread and tell us something!

<img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

-ol' 2long

Alllll righto!!!!! Congratulations!

This is good news, but there is much more to your life - and some of it is "major stuff."

Must be going pretty well, because you are positive about things.

The commute part has got to be hard. Mine is 5 minutes, and sometimes I think it is 4 minutes too long. I hope for your own mental health you can do something about that.

(SS supresses a grin.)

I find myself wondering what X has to say about it.

My work here is done for tonight. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

SS

Thanks all for the comments and support.

Life is just simply "busy".

As far as what X thinks...who knows. I've spent too much of my life worrying about that. I have no room for that hearatache. Every time I revisit that, or thtink about it, it hurts. He does periodically ask me how it is but I only respond when i have to deal with DS issues.

I want to move away from that pain.

He sent me an email today. His therapist gave him an article about children of disfunctional families. he commented that some of the issues reminded him of me, some reminded him of himself.
Then he asked me if I wanted to read it.

So now I'm sitting here sad and angry. So many times I went to therapy and asked him to listen to something or to read something and he wouldn't. my healing, pain, and growth were not takeen seriously. Now, he wants to share some big epiphany with me? I just don't get it. Why bother?

I've told him point blank that I don't want to be friends. It hurts too much.

Anyway, other than that, I'm doing pretty well. I love my job but do hate that commute.

DS had his visit with the court investigator yesterday. It seemed to go well. In another month, this will all be behind me and the settlement will be in place.

most of the time, I am okay but today this wholething is bothering me again....