Hi Lucidity.
I clicked on your ID name and then on the right hand side to 'view recent posts.
I came up with your first post from Dec. of '03.
I hope it is alright with you that I copy and paste it here.
It explains your situation a little, but dear, you are going to have to tell us more for us to understand what is going on in your life now.
In May of 2004???
Sincerely, Julie
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lucidity
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posted December 10, 2003 10:45 AM
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I am obviously very cautious of everyone on here.
I feel as though this could get very nasty at some point, so I will just start talking about myself and where my life is going.
I wrote a letter to OM about a month ago.
I told him that he could no longer come over to see OC, I felt he was spending way to much time at my home and that me and the kids were really stressed out about it.
I told him that I was tired of all the calls to my work and my cell phone and that he needed to understand that I am never going to be with him.
That this letter was not up for discussion and that he needed to think very hard about how he was going to react to the letter.
I told him that I did let everyone know about the letter and the possability of what his reaction would be and I would take whatever steps needed to protect myself and my children including calling the law and getting a protective order for my children.
His biggest threat for all these years has been H2Y. He has always threatened him with violence if I made any kind of a move.
His reaction to the letter was typical at first.
It has been so quite and very peacfull for about a month and a half now.
He has not contacted OC and OC is thriving.
Myslef and the Day care provider have noticed a very positive change in my sons attitiude.
He has been a much happier and loving child.
We don't discuss OM at all.
My life has been hell for the last four years.
It has taken me everyting to just survive all that has happened to me. It is sad to realize that I have been a willing participant in it all.
I am not making excuses for my behavior and I am not asking for acceptance from anyone.
I will never prove my worth to anyone again but GOD.
I may have lost everything and everyone I love.
I have however found myself, my worth and my dignity.
That FAITH1, ORCHID, CHRIS and H2Y is my "BUILDING BLOCK"
