Since last saturday, this week had been... sort of bad...
H asked for 3 days until counselors appointment, and I was giving up, meaning I LBed a bit, got depressed again, and didn't gave nothing to recovery those days... I know not good at all, and although it could have been worse, I didn't gave my best those days. Maybe it was mi crazy side talking, maybe the depressed one, or maybe my taker who knows?
Thing is it turned out this way. Counselor made H think about him keeping his current job, why do it, or why don't. H made his point telling her he is still attached emotionally to OW, not phisically, and he didn't knew what he felt about me anymore... does FOG fit here a bit?
Well H has to make his choice, on leaving his job or not this weekend. I already know I did all it took to recover my M, and if it's not going to be that way, is not going to be because of me I'm @ peace with it.
Crazy thing was... that we already have an agreement if he doesn't, financial one, and when the counselor listened to it, she said that it was abvious that we still wanted to be together <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" /> , well I guess that's part of us, we still care a lot about each others well being, but don't know how to make a better M?
Anyway... Pray for us, we are going to need it, FS, was on my top 3 needs, and I have to change that too, well I been working on that for some time, and I think money is just something that givews you things... but not true happines, anyway, we will have to manage meanwhile he is without job, and also... well can you believe it? counselor offered to gave appointments for free until H got a new job? Well, I fixed her computer, and this date was for free, call it interchange of advice heheh she has to got a lot of bad computers for us to accept that, or figure out another way. I don't got what I can not pay for.... Anyway I thought it was good of her, and she mean it....
Well H is making his choice and by the weekend, cause I can't stand like this any longer, I know me, adn I'm getting depressed and frustrated again, so either way, please pray harder for us, we are going to need it.
