I work two full time jobs. I love to work on myself but on my days off I just stay in bed.

I have tons of work to be done around the house and in the yard, living alone now everything is my responsibility. I could be just exhausted from the two jobs and the emotional stress of everything that has happen to me this year.

I just hope I'm not falling into a depression. Any free time I have, I just been sleeping, but when I awake I don't feel rested. Some nights I wake up crying and thats when I pick up a book or go to this website.

I want to have energy to do everything I need to get done and especially work on myself, but I hope I haven't fallen into a depression.

I think it depends. Since you work two jobs my first thought would be you're tired. But why are you working two jobs? Are you trying to eat up free time so that you don't have to deal with other problems? Could you drop one job or find a new job that pays enough so you could quit the two you have now? How many hours of sleep are you getting a night?

I'm concerned by these comments:

"I love to work on myself but on my days off I just stay in bed."

"Any free time I have, I just been sleeping, but when I awake I don't feel rested."

"Some nights I wake up crying..."

In my uneducated opinion this points to depression. The waking up crying clinched it in my mind. Why don't you talk to your doctor? He could give you a much better diagnosis.

April

Hope -

I agree with April, it sounds like depression or anxiety.

I work full time and have a lot of responsibility too. (my house + 2 rentals, a vacation prop & my daughter) I was so depressed and anxious about everything I would have to do when I was thinking about asking him to leave I could barely function.

I went and got on Lexapro (anti-anxiety/depression drug) & now I am doing fine. What I can't do, I don't worry about. And I am learning how to ask people for help. One day I even called someone to come over & start my lawn mower. I even told one couple in my rental house tthat I was alone and could they take care of some of the maintenance themselves, they were more than happy to.

I know exactly what you are going through, please go doctor. He'll give you what you need to get back up. And learn how to ask people for help, they will be happy that you did.

Please take their advice. I have the same problem with you. First, I couldn't sleep, now I feel sleepy all the time. In the free time, i don't feel like doing anything. The emptyness, lonelyness is like poison eating my heart up. I am on Celexa now. If it is not the medicine, I think I will do worse.

Maybe I will try the nutrition route first. I will start with St. John's wort its supppose to help with depression.

Medication and I do not mix. I'm allergic to alot of medications out there on the market.

I'm sure all this rain we been having hasn't help. I just wish I can find the strength to get everything done.

It is lonely. Work keeps my mind off of things, sometimes. The OW is client of mine, soon to former client as soon as I wrap things up.

One of my jobs is a business I co-own and the second job has great benefits. I also co-own a business with my WH, which he wants me to sign off on. BTW, I'm not going to. We also own an investment property.

I just wish the crying will stop. I loved him for fourteen years, and still do. Since the OW is still in the picture, I can't fight for my marriage. My words mean nothing; her's mean everything.

I know I'm a strong and independent woman, but he is my world. When I took my vows, I meant them. I guess sometimes I need encouragement, but sometimes I feel I'm falling in a deep hole and I can't get out. I'm overwhelmed, tired and just feeling out of it.

I'm not going to let the OW take control of my emotions, that is why I'm trying to get out of this funk.