You haven't talked much lately about how you're doing.

Do you still think you made the right decision? You sound good but I was just wondering if you're ok. It must have been a very hard decision to make.

Jenny

Thank you for asking Jenny. I want to ask for help but I don't think anyone can help me.

I miss him more than I can say, and I feel like such a hypocrit because I can't apply the same principles to him that I apply to even trangers. I made both of our lives hell for two years because I couldn't let go of the anger and hurt. Now I wonder everyday if I made the right decision.

He asked to see me at the property we own together to talk about the property, but he also had competed the questionaires and as been reading MB while on the road. This was a few weeks ago.

I can't let go and I can't let him back in. I won't live with him again without being married first, I know that much.

I read here constantly about people who learn to trust each other again. And it gives me hope, it is possible.

I know the chances of a marriage with him lasting are very slim, but I also know the power of love is strong.

See...total confusion. Your probably sorry you asked.

Total confusion is the normal state of play around here (I was going to put "state of affairs" but stopped myself LOL) so I wouldn't worry about that LOL

You never know. It sounded to me when you first came here that you had something worth keeping. I remember I was the only one who went against what everyone else was saying. I still stand by what I said then. I think trust can be earned and I think people can show they can be trusted. I know in my case every single thing I do is now an open book to my H and he knows it.

Jenny

Thank you, that means a lot to me. He is a very hard person to hate, that is for sure.

He is going to really like you if he ever starts reading the forum. I don't think he's figured that out yet, and I'm not going to tell him. LOL