I am officially moving to Plan B by the end of the weekend. WH has agreed to move out.I plan A it to death and I see my health at risk (not eating, migranes, stomach issues). I love my H with all my heart, but his actions are destroying me and our M if their is anything left.

After 3 great days together, Wh had to pick a fight and turn it around that it was my fault. Later he admitted that it was him. It's like when I get too close and when we are happy he has to do something to spoil it.

WH was very open to moving out. Only thing that seemed to concern him was where he would go and what people would think. It hurt that i didn't seem to part of the thought process. He thinks that since he has never been away from me (without talking) for any length of time it might help him figure things out. He said when he is away from OW he misses her and wants to see if the same is true about me. Truely sick!!

I am so scared, but I know that I am enabling him to continue this lifestyle that is slowly killing me. I'm afraid that he will enjoy OW more and really decided that is where he wants to be. He said that he treats her basicly the same way he treats me and that she has seen the worst side of him. He told me they talk about everything and she knows him as well as I do. 13years compared to 1year. WTF?

He is very upset with me that I told my IL who she was. Now he feels that he can't even go there and how could she ever go there. What would they think of her? Yah, well what should they think. They adore our DD more than anything. I told him that true love conquers all and if she is what he wanted all of the would be nothing. He told me that I know how he hates to make changes. I guess he is saying staying with me wouldn't make him happy, but it is the easy way with no change. I told him that if she was so worth it then the change would be exciting.

I did a lot of LB. Not good I know, but it felt great. Amazing that he agreed with mostly everything I said. I know he has doubts about her too. That is good isn't it?

Please remind me that I am doing the right thing and that Plan B is quite effective. I love him so much that I feel like a piece of me is being tore out. Part of me feels that I am throwing him to her. I know that is how the fantasy will dissolve, but what if it isn't the fantasy and he truely is in love with her. I feel like I just handed him over. I'm scared and crying as he goes out with the guys after work to drink. What a life!!!