Well, 4 days after the second plan B (first one lasted 6 days before he cracked but NC didn't last), WH emails that he has ended contact with OW and he was "100% sure that he wanted to focus on me 100%." That lasted a whole 8 hours. By the time I saw him that night he was totally depressed and the next night he said that he didn't think he could come back--couldn't remember that we ever had it, blah, blah, blah. Said he wanted to be alone the next night to think (he's been living in his own apartment for 6 months). Said he would be back the day after that (July 3rd).

Well I couldn't take it any more and packed up the kids to go to my sister's for the weekend. Left a note on the door "We're gone. Back Tues. night." WH jumped on a plane to see his best friend (although I suspect that he met OW for at least a night). I know he called her b/c I now have access to his cell #.

Talked that Wednesday (July 7th) and he said he really didn't think he could come back. Said didn't think I could "satisfy" him blah, blah, blah (all the while sounding very depressed). I talked some about how I knew of ways to re-kindle the love between us (of course, WH doens't remember every us "having it"). He said "this is such a mess. I just want to move and start over. But not sure..blah, blah, blah. Then said "just let me get over this hump--I'll be over to see the kids on Sun am (that's tomorrow).

I know he arrive back from his "vacation" early this evening, but no call. I'm so scared of what he is going to say tomorrow am. I'm ready to go back into plan b again, but this time I'm sure it will be for the long haul and not looking forward to it.

Maybe I'll feel better once I see him and then go into plan b. The waiting part is killing, I mean killing me. I really have very little energy left to do this. Anticipation always kills me. So maybe I'll feel better once we get over this hump--seeing him and letting him know that I'm back to "no contact" with him.

If I go back into Plan B, do I need to send another letter? If so, does it say the same thing or what? I think WH is depressed b/c he realizes that NC is harder than he thought (so he must "really be in love with her."