Yesterday was my anniversary, fourteen years together, how did he celebrate by cleaning out our joint account? I know he is in a fog, but he should know right from wrong.

I didn't receive a call or anything, in a way I'm glad because I have such anger in me now. I just want to cuss him out.

I'm in Plan B-boy when I saw a zero balance on our online statement, I almost picked up that phone.

I don't like the angry feeling. I feel like I want him to hurt as much as I'm hurting. I want him to feel pain like I'm feeling. I don't want to be angry, because I feel like my WH and OW are controlling my feelings. I feel he wants me to hate him, so it will be easier on him, in some odd way.

Now I want to tell everyone what awful things my WH as done to me. I know anger can destroy you, so I hope this passes soon.

Is this another stage of feelings one goes through?

I still love him but I feel like I deserve better, I want to do things for me now. I do want to fight for our marriage, but I'm not going to play games, or malipulated like the OW. If he comes back it is because he loves me, not because he thinks he loves me.

I can't imagine loving another person, my WH still has my heart. It has been only seven months since d-day and four months he left.

As I said in an earlier post, I feel like an injured bird, but I will fly again, but this time even higher than before. I just need to heal. God will give me the strength.

The anger is a normal emotion, and can be somewhat helpful. BUT - the thing that concerns me is the fact that he was able to clean out the joint account!!! That is not acceptable!
Fighting for your marriage does not mean that you have to lay down and allow your self to be taken advantge of.
You need to protect yourself. You do not have any obligation to your H or is OW to help support their lifestyle. In fact, if they have to struggle financially, that will bust their bubble in a hurry. In my opinion - financial strains is one of the biggest A busters..
How are you able to pay your bills?
Is he able to charge on your joint credit cards still?
You need to protect yourself.
And it is not enough to have just enough money to get by - you need to have enough to treat yourself occasionally too.

We have separate credit cards and saving accounts. this is the only account we had together. I'm figuring if it ever came down to a D---him cleaning out the account will not look good. He actually transfer the money into his personal account. I have all the info, made copies.

That is why I didn't touch the account during the separation. I know he is suffering financially, which I don't mind, I want him and OW to suffer, maybe it will make the fantasy a reality. Plus the OW likes the good life, the reason she got involved with my H is because his family has money. She even though she has my in-laws caught up in her evil web, taking my MIL shopping, going to dinner with them, she was even trying to plan my SIL baby shower, when everything was exposed. The OW husband left her as soon as he found out and my WH was forced to tell me. He wasn't going to tell me, he wanted to live a double life, but the OW wanted him for herself.

BTW, my MIL hate liars, and she was caught in many of them including trying to discredit me. It backfired on her. My in-laws told me she will never be part of the family.

I just don't like being angry, it controls you. I like to be able to control my feelings, but lately I cry with just hearing a song or remembering a moment from the past. In fact I was shopping and walking through the men's dept. and I just wanted to cry. I miss shopping for him, but I went and bought something for me instead.