Well, those of you who know my story, know that I was waiting for WH to show up on Monday. Another day, another lie, another broken promise. My 17 yr old son, "J" is having a very difficult time. Last night was HELL for both of us! He totally feels betrayed by his father, and I don't see any forgiveness in his eyes. J has become quite angry and bitter where my H is concerned. Who by the way has STILL not made it home, or even bothered to call. My youngest son, "C", 16, doesn't say much one way or the other about his dad and "R", 20, my oldest son, my strenght and support when I'm too weak and beaten down, is very disappointed in his father and tells me that he no longer has any respect for his dad. I told all of them that despite everything, that I still love him, and that if and when he manages to make it home, he has one chance to PROVE to me that he has been "working". I know that you have to have a VALID, picture id, CDL Liscense to drive a commercial vehicle. You also have to have a LOG BOOK, these things I will DEMAND to see. Also I will DEMAND to be givin a co. name, address, and phone number, that I intend to call with my H standing right there when I call to see if he is "employed" with said company. I've told the boys that this will be enough proof to me that he isn't lying. I'ts not going to make everything peaches and cream, but at least it will give me a reason to try to save this marriage. If he can't provide me with the proof I ask for, then he can take his butt on down the road. I can't keep lying awake at night wondering about where he is, what he's doing, or who he's with anymore. I've lost 13 lbs. since July 7 and I'm starting to feel a little bit better about myself. In fact, lol, I even played FOOTBALL with my kids Sunday night!!! It was quite interesting and one heck of a workout! My question for today, how do I deal with my son "J"s pain, that has been caused by his father? "J" has recently been diagnosed with "mood disorder" and "severe depression", and my H's actions aren't helping my son in the least! Any ideas whould be greatly apprecieated. Love & Prayers, Lana

Sorry to hear the latest. It is very hard to try to protect your sons from WH's actions. Your WH is going to have to work on that.

What MB plan are you in?

Haven't even made it to a plan yet! Tried to find info on plan a/b but had no success at the time, and ran out of time to look further. The most I've had a chance to say to my husband is that we need to set some time aside to start working on us. Let's see, I believe that was the 2nd to last time I spoke to him on the telephone, when he promised to be here for our son's birthday on 7/18, which of course he STILL has not made it home. He agreed to put some time aside for US, he has yet to do so. Well, I've got to go pick up one of my "adopted sons" from work. I'll check back later. Take care & God bless, Lana

Lana- There is a link to Plan A on my signature line. I really thought he would be home by now!

hey lana,
i was wondering myself if he ever made it home yet.maybe he is trying to take some time to think about his actions? well, its almost the end of the month, so he'll have to come home to get his check. remember to have your son hide it until you get home.i'm glad to hear that your keeping busy. football, huh? maybe i should try it. please keep posting, so we know your okay. keep strong!

It's Friday morning. I have to go to work in about 4 hrs. No sign of my H as of yet. The boys are telling me to start selling his "stuff". I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm falling back into that deep, dark hole of depression again. I'm not at all "together". Picked up my check yesterday, after I pay what bills I can, I'm broke for the next 2 weeks, again. H's check will show up either today or tomorrow. I work both days, I hope and pray that he doesn't show up while I'm at work! The boys will not do things the way I want them to. They have already expressed their feelings to me, and they are not going to let my H just show up and start giving them orders as if he's been here all along. They will not do anything he tells them to do, and that's going to cause some major problems. Which of course, that's what they want, as my oldest son put it, "If he were acting like dad, he'd be treated like dad, but he's acting like someone who is out to hurt you (me) and nobody is going to hurt my mom without paying the consequences". Meaning that he fully intends on bringing his father to the point of a physical altercation! Which I have fully expressed that I don't want that to happen, but if I'm not at home the boys will do what the boys will do. My nerves are rough, raw, and ragged. I'm actually shaking at this very moment. The kids start school on Wed. and I don't even have the $ to get them any supplies right now. Usually, they would be in a panic because I've waited till the last minute to do their shopping, but they haven't said anything about it. Sometimes they drive me crazy, then they turn around and can be so understanding that it makes me cry. Once again, another point where the boys are taking care of mom instead of mom taking care of the boys. I love those kids, thank God I have them. Well I've to take care of some things befor I go to work. Thanks for the support, I really need MB right now. I'm going to check that link real quick too. Love & Prayers to all, Lana