I have posted before about H's selfishness. It drives me crazy! He wonders why I don't feel close to him. This is a run-down of last night..
Sitting at sons game. Starts to get cool and rain a bit. H asks if I was getting cold and if I had a jacket and umbrella in the car. I said yes, could you please get it. He laughs and says no, but I can open the trunk for you. (points the remote and the car across the lot to open the trunk, of coarse makes sure the people around us hear this).. This may seem small but he does this stuff all the time. Gosh I need him to be a gentleman! May sound dumb, but I need that!
Then we pick my daughter up for Cross Country practice and something was wrong with her. Her face from her cheeck bones up and eyes were really, really swollen. She was scared to death, and her throat was swelling too. I was going to drive her straight to the walk-in. H says aren't we stopping for corn??? I said no, I want to get her to the clinic. I asked him to go with us and he says..."I wanted to work on the deck". So, I dropped him and son off and took her alone. Ends up she had a alergic reaction to something, they aren't sure what but want me to get her in for alergy testing. She looks better this a.m. but, still swollen. Anyway, I can't believe how selfish he is.
He said he was sorry, that he knows he was selfish. And when I mentioned the coat and umbrella, I said I need him to be a gentleman to me. I (which I know was wrong) said, I try to do these things for you that you like. Bringing you meals when you are working outside. Asking if you are thirsty and bring you drinks and things. I need that from you too. At first he seemed angry, but later came and said he was sorry for being selfish.
Thing is it gets harder and harder to be forgiving with each selfish action. (my daughter, not the other) How do I keep from building up resentment!
<small>[ August 04, 2004, 09:15 AM: Message edited by: sohard ]</small>
