D-day was may 15. H has changed so much in the last 4 weeks. He has said and done things that he hadn't done in our 31 years of marriage, he says its because he knows now what he could have lost. He says he not only loves me but he is in love with me. He is the husband that any woman would want and it scares me to death. There is such a big change in him just since the 4 of july. On the 4 we went to party at a friends house and I thought everything was good until a couple of days later he tells me that he and his friend were snorting cocaine while the rest of us were in the house. He has never done drugs before so I figure it's part of the depression he is going through, but I still lost it, and he finally promised not to do it again and said I could test him anytime I want. The OW and her husband are back together again and most of the changes in him came after he found this out. I feel like he's here because she went back to her husband and didn't want him. He also refused to let me talk to her husband and tell him about everything. My H promised me that he told her husband himself but I think there would of been some kind of reaction if he had. H says the OW's H didn't do anything because they all work at the same place and all need to keep their jobs. But my H and her H work together just the two of them in one small room for 12 hours a day so I would think something would have happened. My H also said he ask the other man if he would be willing to talk to me and he said no. My H seems to be trying very hard to gain my trust again but I just can't seem to let it go. How do I stop thinking of the two of them together and start moving on? Every little thing reminds me of time he spent with her. I can't seem to let it go and learn to trust again. Anyone got any ideas?
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