I guess I just need to vent...

Have been doing okay for the past couple of days, waiting for my consultation with Steve Harley on Thursday morning.

This afternoon, I am very angy. Angry at WH for all the deceit and cheating.

Really angry at OW. I want to call her up and call her every name I can think of. Want to grab her throat and squeeze.... want to punch her in the nose.... Anything physical I could do.

But I won't.

Forgot to take anti-D for a couple of days. Took today's dose. But somehow I don't think these feelings, these ups and downs can be helped by the anti-D.

Just knowing that he said he broke it off with her, that he still isn't planning on moving back home (he was talking about buying a microwave for his apartment yesterday).

Knowing that he is still in contact with her, and that he lied about it (saw where he had recieved a call on his special adultery cell phone - not a missed call, a recieved call the night after he had supposedly broken up with her) just fills me with an anger that I almost can't control.

But I will.

Intercepting that message that she left on his work cell phone (he has 3 cell phones - work cell, personal cell, and special adultery cell).
Hearing her message go around and around and around in my head - my head wants to blow up, and my stomach wants to puke!

I would like to take my WH and..... (Insert your favorite form of phyical punishment here)!

Hey, this really helps! Just putting it into words somehow lessens the feelings.

Is this okay? Do others have feelings like this?

Thanks for listening. I'v just letting my fingers do the talking (I know several "sign language" gestures - insert your favorite here)!

Ahhh, nothing like venting. You are still very new in this. Hang on for a rough ride.

Hi K,

I can understand your feelings of anger.Oddly enough,I sway between being really upset at my WH and then of the homewrecker.Lately it has been more of the homewrecker because she will not go away and now it's a moot point because I am getting a D.

I just can't believe there is another woman out there that is involved with MY WH.I should be more mad at my WH for starting it all but they are both responsible for this awful and painful choice.I love my WH so it's harder to be mad at him,I guess.

Anyway,keep coming here to post and vent.Try getting a punching bag to release some anger or punch a pillow or smash an old dish something active but not harmful to you or those around you.The feeling will pass in time and then you can get back to focusing on you.It does for me.

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You guys are great!

Good thing I got this all out of my system. WH is coming here tonight. Plan A like nobody's business!

Got myself all dolled up, feel like a party coming on.

This has really helped me... this and a couple of beers (it is very hot here today).

Thanks again.... K

Howdy K! Am so glad you are going to be visiting with SH. I think you will really like him. He is extremely helpful. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

I just wanted to jump in and vent also!
I am sooooooooooo pissed right now! My H just dropped son off and my son tried to call his dad on hie cell phone to tell him goodnight and he's not answering! My son is upset. It just angers me to no end!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He came walking in here to grab his suit for an interview tomorrow for a second job...."so he can have some extra money of his own"...his words.
GOD!!!!! Why is he being so selfish??????????????? He says he not in contact with OW unless she calls him...yeah right!!!!! He's talking about getting an apartment. What the hell is this man thinking??????? I am so angry right now...I would like to rip his f*****g head off! I wish I had the gutts to call the OW and scream in her ear. GEEEZZZZZZZZ. I don't know how I will ever get to sleep tonight.