Last night I was feeling really jittery so I decided to go to the gym in order to work off some of that energy. When I pulled in I noticed is van about 2 spaces away from mine. I almost took off then, but I decided to stay because I didn't want to not do what I was planning just because he was there. So I went ahead and did my exercize and did everything I was going to do and I didn't see him once. When I was leaving I was walking to the entrance and there he was standing there waiting for me. He said he saw my car outside so he decided to wait for me to come out. I told him that I would have parked my car farther from his but I didn't want him thinking I was stalking him. To which he said he didn't think I was doing anymore. We talked for a while still at the gym about one of his student's problems and so on. He says his student's problems were something like off of the Springer show. As is ours weren't Springerest on their own. Anyway, he asked where I was staying and I said a hotel, again didn't mention which one. He tried to help me out with my car before I left and that was pretty much it. For the first time ever I kept my cool around him. I smiled and talked without any signs of tears. I was kind of proud of myself. Today I went to the house to pick up my mail. I called before and he was waiting outside to give me a bag with it all in it. I gave him his pants that his mom left with me the other day and then I left. Both times it looked as if he was expecting me to give him a hug or something but I just got in my car and left. It's too bad the thing I'm waiting for in the mail wasn't in there.

As for him, I guess he's been working out a lot and lifting weights so although he may be losing fat it doesn't look like it. He looks heavier than ever and his neck is starting to dissappear. I thought that was kind of funny but oh well. Overall things were okay. I'm not going to try to contact him even anyway. I will have to let him know that I will need those letters when I they come in. So, that's about it. I was pleasant when I saw him but didn't act as though I wanted to leach onto him and never let go.

I guess he hasn't found out about the girl's parent's knowing what happened. She doesn't come back to town until Sunday.

you did great ivy! i don't post to you often but i think of you and i keep you in my prayers.

Great, Ivy. Wonderful job. Your attitude is excellent.

I'm not exactly the poster boy for good attitudes this week, so I'm glad in a way I haven't seen my WW, though I did snoop by OM's house this morning to see if her car was there (it was).

Anyway, as Kimmy puts it so well - I'm so freakin' proud of you! Keep it up!

GC

I'm frickin' (he! gc - changed it on ya!) proud of you, too! It does get easier to gain control of your emotions once you do it once or twice.

From one former San Antonioian to another BIG FAT MUCHO GRANDE HUGS, mija!

- Kimmy

Good job Ivy! I hope that I can be that way with my WH.
Keep it up!

Hey Ivy,

It sounds like you're doing great!

Just a suggestion...

Get yourself a P.O. Box and file a change of address form. The downside is that they will mail a notice to your old address saying your mail has been forwarded - so your H will know your P.O. box number if he sees the notice. I suppose he could hang out at the post office and try to follow you or something. But, if you're not really afraid of that - I'd recommend getting your mail forwarded so you don't have to go there for it.

-AD

Well, I'm hoping to have my own home in the next week or so, so I won't have to get a PO box, besides, I don't think I can afford one right now but thanks for the suggestion. Anyway, I just got a text from H saying the mail I was waiting for came in today so I won't have to worry about that anymore either. So all is well right now. I'll still have to go pick that mail up but past that I won't have to see him until I go pick up my things.

Did I mention that the girl I'm looking for an apartment with used to be a police officer? I thought that was good. She used to live in IN and is looking for a job with the police up here now.

Also, I bought some SH books thanks to a very nice gift I received but I had to have them sent to H's house. H received them as is considering reading them. He said he wasn't sure if he really wanted to but I told him "whatever, it's up to you" and if he didn't want to read them to just put them with my things when I go to pick my things up. That way I can keep them for future reference sometime down the road. I don't know what I'll do if he decides he wants to ever come here. I doubt that will happen but I just thought it was strange that he was even considering looking at them.

<small>[ August 13, 2004, 09:21 PM: Message edited by: ivoryivy ]</small>

Hey, sparrow got one of those notices today. She's so sweet.

I think she's been busting her butt to get OM wrapped around her finger nice and tight, because she won't see him for NINE days, and probably won't get into many Internet cafes with Grandma calling the shots. OM is getting meaner and meaner every time he sees car4love.

GC