mrs. joad...you are me a couple of years ago, except you got caught...I can't tell you that your internet 'love' is not worth giving up your 'real' life for...only you can determine that, but I can tell you that I also met my 'soulmate' on the internet 5 years ago...I can also tell you that, I have had numerous chances to run off and be with him, and I never once did it...why?...because even through that lovely veil of fantasy we created together, I knew that there was no way in hell that this man that I had never lived with...who had never seen me look my worst, never seen me puking my guts out or running for the bathroom, or anything else unappealing, could ever love me the way I was/am loved by my H...
In the end my OM proved to be just what he seemed to be..a user and abuser who would have left my life in ruins...
Mrs. Joad, you have in front of you a husband who loves you so very much that he is willing to put himself, his pride and his very soul on the line for you...and on the other side..far, far, away, you have this man that makes you feel very good in this moment, but has not near the morals or devotion to you as your H..and know that if you walk away from this man, there may be no coming back...
There is a poster here...I believe her name is Hopefulperson? (if I'm wrong on that someone please correct me) She pretty much left her husband and family for a 'soulmate' she met on the internet..I am going to try to dig up her posts so you can read them and see what you are likely facing if you stay on this road...I think it was Led Zeppelin who said, "There are two paths we can go by...but in the long run, there's still time to change the road we're on".....