I'm fighting the dumps. I keep replaying in my mind the fact I asked my W where she was staying and she said bitterly
"Just with some friends!"
OUCH!
This is so painful. I do not deserve this. If she is with OM she could let me know. This just cruel on so many levels. I try to save my M and I get punished for it. Everyday I have to muster the ability to smile and remain upbeat for my children, plus try to find a new job, (I was starting a business, but it's been too stressful to do all this at once and now considering I don't have a reliable partner, I'd better get on someones payroll FAST)
How cruel can you get?
How can you tell your husband who has been supportive of you during your withdrawal, taken care of the kids while secretly you were out with OM and OMP's or busy living your separate life?
I know life isn't fair and there are no M police, but this is ridiculous. I miss affection, I miss someone to laugh with, joke with, watch movies with, go to dinner with....this is so unfair.
How can she look in the mirror?
BLAH!!!!!!!!!!
Next time use a knife instead of a spoon. It's less messy and more humane!
One of the things that kills me most is her co-workers and associates think she is so SWEET a DOLL...maybe she used to be. No one knows the pain she's putting me thru. I did expose to a few of her friends whom I don't really know. I have a feeling they enabled her A. I can't be sure but I think their attitudes were for her to do whatever made her happy. The only problem with that is happiness NOW is not necessarily happiness for the DURATION! She doesn't have a mother/father or aunts and uncles to expose the A to. I have absolutely no support. In fact most of the people she's associated with over the last couple years probably don't even know she's married and living with me.
CORRECTION SHE USED TO LIVE WITH ME. I need to know if she's staying with the OM! How do I find out. I can't take of my kids in this mental state. I need to know the truth.
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<small>[ August 23, 2004, 11:46 PM: Message edited by: FamilyMatters ]</small>
