The subject is my question. I am struggling with what I am going through, and now the symptoms are becoming physical. My weight loss is not great (15/20lbs in 10 weeks) but I am quite nervous now. I have a hard time keeping my hands steady and am jittery all day. Sleep avoids me unless coaxed with some Excedrin PM.

I feel like someone is tightening my ribs up. It isn't fun. I only eat if I am with people, I feel pretty sick to my stomach all the time.

I wonder how me taking anti-D will be interpreted. I think I am just going to tell her and see what happens. Just wondering what to expect.

I am starting to feel foggy.

I don't know what MB thinks on spilling the anti-d thing, but I can tell you it wasn't a good idea for me.My wh told ow and found out from ow sister ow told everyone. Everytime I did something stupid they would all laugh and say i guesss she is off her anti-d.

Lexapro made my life a LOT easier.

Why do you need to tell your WW? Simply make the appointment, go, fill your prescription, and when/if she asks, tell her:

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> I am quite nervous now. I have a hard time keeping my hands steady and am jittery all day. Sleep avoids me unless coaxed with some Excedrin PM. I feel like someone is tightening my ribs up. It isn't fun. I only eat if I am with people, I feel pretty sick to my stomach all the time. </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Don't ask her opinion, see her "reaction," or hear what she has to say about going to the doctor. Just go. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> It's so easy!!!

SS

I think it is a great idea that you on are anti-d's and I don't think you need to say anything. If this anti-d has too many side effects, you may need to change to another if you do not feel better.

They really helped me. I went to the doctor the first time in April. He gave me free samples of anti-d's and a sedative at that time. I tried the one anti-d and it had side effects so I stopped. I thought I could make it without it. I went for months, took a sedative every now and then--but could not even out my moods and kept having destructive thoughts.

In July, the fog was lifting from WH and we were getting along--found out later because OW was out of town. End of July she came back and WH went back into a heavy fog. I started to go "crazy" could not concentrate at work and didn't want to eat again. After d-day I lost 17 pounds and at 5'6" and 115--it scared me that dropping more pounds would make me look like a stick figure! So I went back to the doctor and he prescribed another anti-d, Exxefor. It helped --no side effects. A few days after starting, it helped me to recover after catching WH talking with OW talking on cell phone; he wouldn't even hang up. After about two weeks, I got myself back which means I got my power back. I actually felt good--like I was going to be okay no matter what happened. The anti-d's changed my outlook or at least helped me to get back my regular outlook. I hope it will work as well for you.

Don't let anything stop you from going to see your doctor! Taking an anti-d during a period of your life that can send you spiraling into depression and anxiety is nothing to be ashamed of. Your WS should be ashamed for putting you in this position!! Personally, I let my WH know that I was not only on an anti-d, but on a tranq. to sleep and stop the anxiety attacks fast when they would hit regardless of the anti-d. Even with both of those, I've lost 55 lbs since mid-May and still have a hard time eating without being nauseated.

Only you know how your WS will react. If you want to, tell. If you don't, don't.

Just take care of yourself right now and get to your doctor!

My WW asked me what the doctor prescribed and I told her.

Don't think it was an LB. Didn't care at the time.

Took my last Cipramil y'day BTW.

Didn't suit me. Shakes/sweats/anxiety in the morning. Doc thinks I should try without, I am doing good and the gym workouts are stabilising me as well as anything.

I will not hesitate to try a different a-d if I need to.

Im new to this site and im on for different reasons,But i also suffer from this as well and i have for 10yrs.i,ve learned to live with it and i don,t care what anyone thinks.I don,t think im any different than anyone else and everyone that is in my life knows and treats me as they always have.If these people in your life cannot handle this or don,t want to then you need to re-evaluate there friendship or otherwise.R.M.U.

I am still on the fence about the anit-d. My appt is at 2:45 this afternoon. I had planned to cancle it, but I think I will go.

Yesteday was horrible for my brain. I could not look at my WW without crying or LB'ing. I was not being good to my kids and was basically going nuts.

I am taking sleeping pills, and they are starting to not work. I only got about 4 1/2 hours of sleep last night.

Hard to think straight in that situation.

I guess I am going to go running for some shelter, using mothers little helper.

CTH there is no stigma to teh use of drugs to prevent OVERREACTION of ones body to extraordinary stimulus.

In the wild such a stress would be dealt with in minutes not months ( i.e. a sabre tooth attack!)

Go take a drug to help rationlise your body's response to teh stimulus and be proud. Tell your W or not, your body, your choice.

NO SHAME. No more than taking an asprin for a headache.

Well, I am going to take them.

I hope they help. I have never had a negative effect from all the other (legal or otherwise) drugs I have taken, and none of them were regulated or taken under supervision.

Please get the pills. They will help you. Be sure to ask doc about how they effect SF. Some can cause problems in that area.

But once you get the right ones, you will feel 100% better, and be able to do what you need to do.

I don't believe it's a LB to tell. You don't need to go out of your way to tell, and you shouldn't say it like, "See what you've done to me?" But if it comes up there's no need to hide it.

Out of ignorance, people might think the ADs will make you punchy, but they will not.

GC