For those of you that don't know my story - I am pregnant and my WH has asked my for a D. WH does not know about the baby.

Anyway they aren't sure how the baby is doing. I have had some cramping so they took a sonogram and think I am 5 weeks. Baby (egg sac) looked normal and was the right size, but my blood work wasn't good. My hormone level isn't rising like it should, so they aren't sure if the baby will continue to develop. I have to go tomorrow morning for bloodwork and then on Tuesday for another sonogram. Please pray that my hormone level has went up. I want this baby desperately. I know that what happens is God's will, but I don't think I can handle a miscarriage and I want this baby so much with or without my WH.

Please just say a little prayer for us. I believe in the power of prayer.

Coolduck - My thoughts and prayers go out to you.

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coolduck - You and your little one are in my prayers.

I'll be praying for you too, Coolduck.

Weaver

I'm praying for you both.

C.

Dear Lord,

I come to you tonight with a deep concern for coolduck & her unborn child. I ask that you keep her & this child under your wing of protection & give coolduck the courage to face this situation & I pray that she & the baby will come out victorious. I pray that if there is something wrong with this baby, that you heal him/her with Your mighty hand. Heal coolduck also Lord so she can face this pregnancy with strength & patience as she faces it alone. Although, we know that she is never alone when You're watching & guiding her every step of the way.

I also pray tonight, Father, that You touch coolduck's H's heart & give him a heart of flesh and remove the one of stone so he will be able to share in the joy of his child.

All this I ask in Jesus' name, who died for all of us upon the cross to forgive us all our sins. Amen.

You are in my prayers!!!!!

(((((HUGS)))))

TreeReich

I pray Heavenly Father that You protect Coolduck and her child. I pray that you protect the baby in her womb and allow for all to be well with her child. I pray that Your will be done in this situation. Children are a blessing from You. We know that all things work out for the good of the believer and we know You will work all of this out for the good of Coolduck and her family. Protect her, Lord. In Jesus name I pray,
Amen.

Father sustain Coolduck and her baby. Let your peace rain down upon them and comfort them. May you provide them with all they need and more. Reassure her when she feels weak and remind her you are there always. Touch her heart and refresh her spirit.

Bless her and cause her to smile and have joy in the things you created. Surround her with support and love as only you can.

Thank you Abba (Daddy) for letting her know you are completely nut'z about her.

In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazereth. Amen.

May His blessings shine upon you.

S&C

Thank you so much for all your prayers. I went to bed last night before I got too many responses, but it is amazing how God works. As I laid in bed last night a sense of peace came over me. I now know that it was all your prayers. This morning I was very calm going for the bloodwork. I'll let you know what happens, but keep praying please

Prayers to you coolduck.Let us know how things go.

O

cd and duckling...prayers from NY too...keep the faith...God always answers us.

Best wishes and God bless!

Some good news - My hormone level that show developing babies has increased. They were concern with the test the first time because it didn't go up as much as they wanted. It didn't go up a whole lot this time, but it did go up. I'll take anything at this point.

I am going Tuesday for another sonogram. They will be looking to see if the egg sac has the next thing it is supposed to have and if it is getting bigger. Although I am still very scared, I am taking the higher hormones as a good thing and I have not had any blood at all.

I have not told my WH and do not plan to until I have more information about my baby. I know that he will accuse me of terrible things and will not be supportive. He will see this as the worst thing thta could of happened and I don't see it that way at all. I know that I will be just fine. I love my DD and it will be hard with another child, but I am an awesome mother and I have a wonderful support system. And too, if he does want this D it will mean more money for me <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

Keep us in your prayers please. I so believe in the power of prayer.
Thanks to all of you. I know if you are on this board, you have your own problems.

I was wondering how the hormone levels came out, glad to see your post.

It's good that you seem to be staying calm.

Will keep you & baby in my thoughts and prayers.

Weaver

Tomorrow is my big day for the sonogram. Please pray that the baby has continued to develop. I know your prayers helped with the bloodwork.

I told WH today and got the expected response. I am such a slut (I guess for having sex with my H), I trapped him, it isn't his, I need to have a abortion. I calmly looked at him and said you can believe what you want, but I can look in the mirror and face myself. Something that you haven't been able to do in a long time. I know the truth and what you think doesn't matter.
Anyway he said that he stayed around after he dropped DD because he wanted to tell me that he wanted to come home. Now he couldn't because I know that he doesn't really like kids and he didn't want another one. He was hoping that we could start going out and spending time together, but that wasn't possible with a new baby on the way. He said that our M would never work with a new baby and if I really wanted to save it I should get the abortion. That I was being selfish if I didn't. I just could believe it. I don't think that he was planning on coming home and I will never have an abortion. I am so disgusted with him. He is showing his true colors left and right, but why did I feel excitement when he said that he wanted to come home. I have had 4 false recoveries. Why am I so weak when it comes to him?? I really do want him back still even after all he has done. I had to call the police to get him out of the house today. It was ugly. Afterthat was when he called me 3 times and said all of the $hit. I don't believe any of it and I told him so, but it still gave me hope inside. Why am I allowing this abuse of myself?? All I want to do is focus on my beautiful DD and this new baby. I want this new baby so much and I want it to be healthy. Why did I tell him the night before the big test? I should of known that I wouldn't get support.

Anyway please say those prayers not for me, but for my hopefully developing baby.

Hi Coolduck,

My prayer for you and your baby has been sent up. I am not quite so eloquent as some of your replies were, but I know the Holy Spirit understands what I am trying to say. I prayed that God allow you this joy of a healthy child in the midst of all your sorrow from your marriage. Try not to focus on your H, concentrate on YOU and your babies. God bless you!

Sonogram went great. Thank you so much for your prayers. Baby is developing. I saw the little egg sac and the heart beating. It's amazing to see something so small (6 weeks) with this strong beating heart. I am so happy and so sad. I felt so sad being there alone and yet I didn't want my WH there. He ruined my first pregnany. I won't let him do it again.

He emailed me today to find out how it went and I didn't respond. I know he wants me to lose the baby or have an abortion. I couldn't be fake back. I still can't believe that he is trying to tell me that he wanted to come back until he heard about the baby. I can't believe people in A's can be so screwed up. I really think that he will end up with OW. And it is so evil, but I hope he is miserable and he is one of the majority that it doesn't work for. It seems like my only way a revenge at this point.

But I am going to focus on me, my DD and my new baby on the way. I remember the joys of pregnancy and I refuse to let anyone take that away from me.
Thanks again.
Mary

coolduck -

Continue to enjoy this pregnancy. I think it is time to go on with your life, and put WH on the back burner. All he is going to do is upset you.

It is not easy to be going thru all you are now, so surround yourself with positive people and thoughts.

Way to go, CD! A "quack" and a "peep" to you! You've got a great outlook! Keep strong for you and your little ones. We'll be praying!