I have been away for a few months because I just couldn't spend more time than absolutely necessary dealing with the affair. I am burnt out and it is so hard to read of others' pain and try to deal with my own.

WH has been home, but still seeing OW. OW has been calling our home constantly, yelling names at me over the phone, and parks in front of our house until WH and I come home. WH doesn't think he can control her behavior. I can't block her phone number because it is a cell phone. I may end up changing the phone number. I have threatened to get a restraining order.

Despite all the problems, I felt things were getting better between us. WH wanted to move three hours away at the beginning of next year and I thought it was a good choice for both of us. He wouldn't go NC but did tell me a few days ago that he hadn't seen her in a while.

On Monday night he left me a message that he was going to OW's house. I was devastated. Then Tuesday was the anniversary of D-day. I told WH that I needed to talk with him about our situation. He ended up going to OW's for the evening and called me from her house to say he was there. He came home at 1:30am and told me he is moving out at the end of the month to his own apartment. I told him that if he stays until the end of the month then we need an agreement on his NC with OW. He is telling me that he is in love with her and our marriage is over.

I am so hurt again. I guess this is my opportunity to go back to plan B, but I don't want to be without him. I just want this affair to end so we can have our lives back. It has been a year now and I thought that once I reached this date that I would know what to do. But I still don't. I don't have any more answers than any other time in his whole ordeal. I thought that the affair would be over by now. If any marriage had hopes for recovery, I thought it was ours. I am an emotional wreck at this turn of events.

This is all I can write for now. I am feeling too overwhelmed so I'll continue later.

firefly

Why do you choose to live like this?

Firefly -

In the immortal words of my grandma -

You need to toughen up (((firefly)))

How? You ask -

yes go back to Plan B, protect your heart from further pain, only you can do this and you must.

Ask Jesus to help you, to take away your pain, to give you the strength to let your WH go, to be happy again. Start talking to Jesus & (God), and don't ever stop.

Then order "Love Must Be Tough".

And please stay here posting Firefly, being here will help you also.

(I'm at work and have meeting - must go, and computer crashed at home, so this is short)

firefly73:

huh ???

what do you seek ?

-rh-