Met up with WH to discuss some disagreement that he has about the divorce papers. For weeks I kept telling WH to see the lawyer because this is a joint petition but WH did not.
He told me to go ahead with whatever we have agreed. Now after the draft is ready, he has lots of problem with it. Somehow we managed to solve the problem and I will call the lawyer to make the amendments. WH offered to call the lawyer but I told him not to because I am afraid he might procrastinate on calling the lawyer. I have had enough of his procrastinations.
Although at the beginning of the meeting, there was a bit of tension when we discuss about our disagreement on the divorce papers...but later...I would say WH still loves me still and there is some regret that shows in his face.
There was a lot of long silence in our meeting. One point when he said something close to sorry for everything and he has tears in his eyes. One long pause where he was biting his lips and staring at me and I waited. How I waited for the right words...hoping he would stop all this nonsense...alas..nothing except...the look.
There was also a point where I wanted to be sarcastic but failed and started laughing. WH laughed too and pointed out that I can never be sarcastic and that it shows in my face. For a moment then, it was like old times...he looked at me and I looked at him...it was like there are no more words to say. He has always had this deep piercing gaze that makes me melt and for that moment it did the trick. I almost hold him hands and tell him I love him and yada yada but yet...I did not.
I am not going to break my tough love act. I will not do it until he comes crawling on his hands and knees and kiss my behind. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />
About an hour later..I left..no kiss and no hugs..I walk away like I don’t care anymore and it was not even an act. I can stop this divorce and go back to the marriage but I no longer want to save it if he is not keen in helping me.
I can bet you that tonight he will be thinking a lot about his actions.
