Okay, I'm really worried now. I don't even know how to say this here. I'm getting scared. I thought about posting this under another name but knowing my situation might make it easier to comment.

Everyone knows how my H's A never really got that far into a PA. I'm not sure if anyone remembers that night that I was with another man just after I had been living in my car a little over a month ago. Now I'm worried. At the time I went to Planned Parenthood and took emergency contraception. Luckly it didn't result in a pregnancy. Now though I've noticed a little bump down there. I guess it's been there a couple of weeks. I thought it was just an ingrown hair but the last couple of nights I've been looking up sites on STDs and I'm getting scared. There is only one bump which is why I really didn't think much of it until now. Remember when I said my skin suddenly got really bad? I'm afraid now that maybe it isn't acne.

I can't afford to go to my normal doctor so I made an appointment with Planned Parenthood for STI tests. The thing is they can't see me for a month. I'm really freaking out now. I don't really have anyone over here to talk to about this and I don't think I'd want to if I did.

I tried to forget what happened that night. It wasn't something I wanted to do. Now I'm worried I may have gotten something from that. I don't know. It's possible it was from my H but I doubt it. It may be nothing but still how am I supposed to wait that long to find out? I even tried to call my normal doctor to see how much it would be to see him but he's closed until Monday.

I'm just really scared. I don't want anyone to see my face now. Why is all of this happening?

Right now I'm hoping that my facial skin is just because of all of the stress I've been under and the bump down there really is just an ingrown hair. As gross as those are at least they will go away.

I feel so dirty not knowing. I haven't told my H about what happened with that awful guy. I know I should, but we're not even really on speaking terms right now. How did my life get so screwed up?

<small>[ September 25, 2004, 04:31 PM: Message edited by: ivoryivy ]</small>

II, I haven't posted to you before but have been following your story. The worry over this will eat you up over a month.

I know I'm in a different country but I work at a university. We have a campus health clinic that is very cheap for students. Do they have one on your campus?

Don't beat yourself up over what you did. You've been through enough just lately. Just get it checked out to put your mind at rest.

{{{{{II}}}}}}

Jen

Hi ivoryivy,

Depending on exactly where the bump is,it could be any of several possibilities.If you give a more precise location and desription,we could perhaps narrow down the choices.Also,any symptoms you may have(i.e. erythema(redness),swelling,pain,discoloration,etc).

O

Sometimes PP will have last minute cancelations or no shows...

If you can afford it timewise... just show up at PP clinic and offer yourself as a fill in for any last minute cancelations... you may be lucky that way.

Are the bumps itchy? oozy? Painful?

Pep

I'm with pep and Ogirl. Need more information, and then Dr. believer can make a diagnosis.

Ivory, another thought is to go ahead and call the regular doctor and explain your sitch. Ask if he is willing to accept a payment plan. If he will, you'll be able to put your mind at ease that much sooner. Stress does have physical manifestations, your breakouts may be a part of this as well as the bump. Are you eating right, getting enough rest? {{Ivory}}

the bump down there is near the vaginal opening less than half an inch away. It doesn't really have any coloring other than it looks paler if I stretch the skin. You can't really see it all that much but it is visable and can be felt by touch. Other than that, it feels irritated and kind of stings although it doesn't look that irritated.

As for my face, it's mainly around my mouth under my nose to my chin. It's not like it's completely covered over but there are areas mainly from under my lips to my chin that have clusters of what I thought were pimples since my skin is sensitive and pretty much if it's touched at all my pores clog and I get them. I don't know.

I checked to see if the school I'm going to this term had a clinic. Since it's not my normal school that i go to. They offer free HIV testing but that's about it. Still I think I might stop by on Monday to talk to a nurse there.

I am eating alright. I'm not getting much rest. The past few weeks I've been averaging about 3 hours of sleep a night and I've been exhausted. My throat has been really sore and my voice comes and goes some days.

do a google search for molluscum contageosum... see if you can find a picture... molluscum are not itchy, little fleshy bumps which are smooth, except for a dimple-like indentation in the center....
Or....


Do these things appear warty? Warty like cauliflower ... bumps that look kind-of "shaggy" and not smooth.

Pep

it's not like that. On my face they are round and look kind of white as if they have puss in them. But there are about about ten really near each other near my chin. Some can be seen and others can just be felt as a sore spot. Then I have a few above my lips as well but they are closer to my nose. That's another reason I thought they were pimples but I've never had a break out this bad. Right now they are all kind of hard because I've been treating them as pimples and they are drying out I guess but they are still there.

Down there it's just a bump, pretty much the same pinkish color as everything else down there. It's kind of hard to see if you aren't looking for it. But I can feel it, it feels kind of hard and it feels irritated.

<small>[ September 25, 2004, 03:01 PM: Message edited by: ivoryivy ]</small>

Most cities, even small ones, have a "free clinic" found under "State of (your state here)" in the phone book. They will usually do testing for HIV and STD's for free or as cheap as $10 that is completly confidential and some even have one day a week set up for these tests alone. Please, please get this checked out. The sooner you find out, the sooner you can get it taken care of, or hopefully, can stop worrying yourself to death.

And in my opinion, you need to confide your infidelity in your husband. He has a right to know that his health is at risk too. It will be hard, but it is the right thing to do. I wish you the best.

Ivory - I think that you are just scared. Please do not have unprotected sex ( or for that matter, any sex) again.

Do get this checked out by a doctor, but I would not worry about it.

I haven't been with my H since this happened. This happened about 3 months after he left me. We haven't had any physical contact since then other than one kiss over a month ago.

Could be perioral dermatitis on your face if they are red and irritated,like pimples,mildly itchy.Usually localized around the nose to mouth,lips,chin areas.

From what you mentioned,it doesn't sound like you have any STD's but could not be sure.Usually they present with specific symptoms if they do present at all.Some people do not have any symptoms intially.But of the STD's that are common(gonorrhea,chlamydia,herpes,HPV) you would usually have some type of vaginal discharge,pruritis(itching),redness,painful intercourse(dypareunia),bleeding,ulcerations,blisters,irritation,etc.A singular bump may mean an infected hair follicle(if the bump surrounds the follicle) or something else.A bump closer to or in the opening could have been an infected Bartholin's gland,Skenes's gland near the urethral opening,etc).

Of course we can't be sure since it usually takes a visual and/or culture/scraping from a Doctor to diagnose what you have.

Did you have unprotected sex?

O

<small>[ September 25, 2004, 03:22 PM: Message edited by: Octobergirl ]</small>

Don't worry, I don't want to have sex now. I didn't want to have it then either. It was when I had hit rock bottom. I'm in a much better situation now and I'm not going to put myself in that situation again.

O, I did once, over a month ago. I wrote about it here. I allowed this jerk who I didn't even know to have his way with me. I didn't want to do it, but I didn't say no. I just laid there. He stopped when I started sobbing half way into it.

I didn't check to see if protection was used. It was only after a few weeks later that I messaged him to ask if it was used. He said no but he got tested every six months and his last results were clean as of June. I was with his at the end of July. That was the last time I contacted him.

I'm hoping everything is fine, but I'm such a worry bug. I worry about everything.

My face isn't blotchy or red. It just looks horrible.

<small>[ September 25, 2004, 03:49 PM: Message edited by: ivoryivy ]</small>

Ivory, I'm no medical person so I'm not going to give medical advice (though I'm glad that those who are suspect that you don't have much to worry about).

I will say, however, that I had waaaaay too much unprotected sex when I was young and incredibly stupid. I'm glad you're thinking all this through after just one scary incident. Keep up the good work -- and keep working on making sure that your head and heart remain aligned. You're doing really well.