I wanted to let you know, that I love you, very very much. Lavendar kisses and hugs and all! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

I'm using the MB forum to let you know this--for two reasons: 1) MB has been (literally) a God-send to get me--us--through this last episode (and more) of the continuing saga of LINY and I think it's appropriate for MB'ers to realize that having this forum, DOES work!; 2)as a "Public Notice" <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> .

I am sorry for the pain I have caused you over these past few months--er, uh, years. I am working on me and this is only making us better. I know you see it. I am working on your EN that I know I ignored for so many years.

I'm so grateful to you for the support you have proivded me--something I didn't do completely and whole-heartedly with your MB/D. I am so sorry for that. I know I can't change those factss. However, I hope I can make things better for you now and be the best H and F to your C that I can be--NOW.

You are a wonderful person, brown! I really have never experienced a person with so much strength and compassion and conviction in them at the same time. And I'm blessed that I can call you my W.

I hope one day you will be able to say the same about me. Please be patient with me. (I know--that takes some gall to ask that. The difference? I'm giving you actions behind my words now.) You know--I'm losing that weight!

We have a long week ahead of us! The work will reap our rewards and blessings! I promise you! (And you know how I feel about "promises"!)

So, hang in there, brown! God ain't finished with us yet!

bump for the lovely brown

Hello my sweet LINY,
I really don't know what to say .... you've never said this in 13 years that I know ya (or in 11 Years of M). Well, not this way. I think you just expected me to know that's how you felt about *me* *us* *you*. I guess maybe once upon a time "I just knew it", but then again I don't always "know" what's going on in your head (truthfully - I don't always want to know <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> )

I have seen the changes in you and I "know" you are trying and improving. It's like I "know" how much I've changed (for the good I hope). It really does happen - you know all that "weight". And, Honey, sometimes it means "wait" and watch.

IMHO - we are an amazing couple, but more importantly - we are amazing people (indiviually). I'm sorry that someone else was telling you that and I wasn't given the opportunity to. Thank you for allowing me to tell you all of this NOW. It's important for *US* to say these things to each other and for *US* to hear them too. (Remember "I'm still inside here and I'm still beautiful" - so are you!!!!!!)

I *STILL* love ya (and I never stopped). We'll be grand.

Lavender kisses - of love, hope, passion, trust, friendship and a best H and F FORVER)

Brown

PS Thanks Believer for the "bump" and for being you - I know LINY has learned alot from you and your story. I know he really understands the pain of what an A can do. But I think he also understands the promise of healing after an A. You helped him see that (and so many other MBer's too). Thanks!! B

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