Not much new is happening with me. Last week wasn't so good, I was pretty depressed for some reason. Cried more then I have in a long time. WH and I really talked for the first time in a long time about a 1 1/2 weeks ago. He seems to be leaning towards coming home but nothing has really changed, he's still not here. He used the excuse that he is too busy at work to put in the effort that would be needed in our M. Just an excuse, I wish he would tell me the real reason. And I just don't know how to draw more out of him. We both have horrible communication skills when it comes to our feelings. I asked him if he would see a MC before making any decisions, but he doesn't want to right now.

Last week his best friend (best man at our wedding) got engaged. He called to tell me and made some passing comment about me meeting her. I really like his best friend but I rarely see him since before now he never had a girlfriend so we never went out as couples.

WH did see my step-father last week for the first time in 4 months. WH notarized something for him and then yesterday volunteered to help my grandmother move. Scored major points with this.

He has agreed to go to Lamaze classes with me which start tomorrow night. In a way I'm kind of dreading class. We'll be surrounded by lots of happy couples who are together and looking forward to the birth of their child. Somedays all I can think about is going into labor while I am all by myself.

I guess I don't really have a question, just kind of lonely and wanted to talk. It's been raining all day and the dogs are driving me crazy (two labs who love the water but won't go out in the rain, go figure). Plus I think the pregnancy is starting to catch up with me, I'm just getting so tired of all of this.

Hi Kloe,

I'm about to hit the road home, but wanted to say hello. I've been wondering where you've been.

Patience, my dear. It's the name of the game.

GC

Kloe,

I have to get off of computer now, but saw you had posted and like Gray wanted to say hey!

Wow just 2 1/2 more months to go. It's getting exciting now.

Kloe about your WH, my opinion is as you probably already can tell, is that nothing will change until you force the issue. Until you change , and you will when you have had enough of his lacksidasical (sp) attitude. I think he is being incredibly selfish (well whats new on this board, eh). When you have had enough, he will change his tune I bet.

Hang in there Kloey girl, we are all thinking of you through this... and little baby girl will be here soon. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Kloe -

Days and days go by with no change and then sometimes everything happens suddenly. So go to the classes, and try to enjoy them. They will help you no matter what.

Take care of you and your little one.

Sorry to hear that you have been feeling down. These pregnancy hormones sure are something. How are you feeling now? Is the baby getting really active. Mine has been so active lately it hurts.

I know the feeling of not having your husband around when you go into labor. That is my fear also. But I know my mom will be there for me and many others if I want them. But I know it's not the same as having our husbands there.

I sure hope this rain stops soon. I have been sleepy all day. Not good when your commuting for over a hour. Take care of yourself.

Hugs,
Tina

I'm just getting tired a lot more and that is effecting my patience with this whole ordeal. WH is being very nice and I now know for sure he isn't seeing OW and hasn't for a while, but he still doesn't want to come home. So the saga continue...

(((((((((kloe)))))))))

I've been wondering about you sweetie!

Something needs to change for you soon. I can feel in your posts you are starting to lose love for your WH. I know you don't want to do Plan B yet, but you will know when it is time for that.

I'm surprised about the Lamaze classes, that's for sure! This would be too painful for me to see the other couples all lovey-dovey. PUKE! You are so darn strong! I wish you could also take another person with you to the classes, like another coach. Is anyone else going to be at the delivery?

I don't want to make waves, either, but have you thought about an Anti-D now that you're in the last trimester? It would be safe now. You are at VERY high risk for post-partum depression, which can be devasting at it's worst. I highly recommend breastfeeding to keep your hormones steady and to give you and this baby special time together. My D and I are so bonded, wow is that special!

I am suspicious that his A is not really over, since he is firmly not coming home. I suspect there is contact. Has he written a NC letter orr shown you any proof of no contact??? After he withdraws (3 weeks) he should be defogged by now...

Whatamidoing - I debated for a long time on the Lamaze classes, WH is actually the one that brought it up to me. I just want to go so I know what to expect during the delivery. I really don't have anyone else to go with. I'm very private when it comes to stuff like this and can't imagine anyone else in the delivery room with me. We'll see how it goes tonight.

I won't do the AD's while I'm pregnant, but I really haven't been depressed except for last week. I think that was just my normal roller coaster ride. After really talking to WH two weeks ago (for the first time in months), he sent me an e-mail saying "I'm glad we started to talk about "us" again." and then nothing.

He works with OW so I know he sees her. I don't know if they talk. We haven't gotten to the point of even discussing a NC letter (not much point arguing over it when he doesn't even want to come home), although I did tell him that if we got back together I don't know if I would be comfortable with him working with her. He said he knew that. I really think it is his guilt that is preventing him from doing anything.

Well class went alright. I think it's good for WH to hear all about what I have to go through with the pregnancy. One awkward moment was when the teacher was talking about all the pillows that the pregnant mothers sleep with. Everyone else kind of laughed knowingly, but he of course has no idea since he hasn't slept in the same bed as me in over 4 months. He did sign up to bring the drinks and snacks for next class, what ever that means.

He works with her? Oh man....he'll have a hard time with NC, huh? This cr*p just pisses me off sometimes!

I'm glad you're class was ok. You may be able to take advantage of the built-in guilt factor of him seeing "normal" hubbies being good to their wives. Hmmm... The snack thing is to suck up to you so he can cake-eat some more, unfortunately. Everything he can do to keep this going, he will try. Damn, I'm sorry I'm not so cheery today. I just bought a phone with caller ID so I can screen my calls in Plan B.