You asked me what he could do.. Well he gave me acess to his email and his cell phone log in He told OW (with me there in the room) to leave him alone and that cheating on me with her was the biggest mistake he has ever made and just last week he had my name tattooed in a wrist band on his arm. He also started reading Dr Harleys books. Which within a week I noticed a differance. Sounds like to me you are at least making some progress now, at least he is speaking to you. It is going to take a lot of time and understanding. He is hurt, very hurt. Please dont take this the wrong way, but everytime I think of that ***** touching him I get sick to my stomach, and it is not like i can just wash her off of him. I feel like he is just dirty. He may feel the same way about you. Looks like I may have jumped the gun on the whole internet thing

HBS:

No, you didn't jump the gun...don't think that!!! You're entitled to your anger. This may be the support you need right now...I know it is for me. I do not take what you wrote the wrong way. I need to hear from others who are going through what he is going through. It helps me remain sensitive to him, and hopefully, I can provide some feedback from "the other side" to help those like my H, whom I hurt. Thank you for responding to my post. I appreciate hearing from you and hope that you continue to stay with MB.

What's the update with your story? Sounds pretty impressive that he did what he did--the tattoo. The reading of Dr. Harley's book. That is definitely a step in the right direction. I don't know if you are a believer, but I will be praying for you that you God's will and that you allow Him to comfort you and guide you through this. He loves us more than any human ever could...unconditionally. He hears the prayers of His children.

I've already given him my email info. Can't give him my cell phone info., cause on my cheap phone, the voicemail stuff is only accessible from my phone, though I did tell him that when I got an apartment and got a new cell phone, I would definitely give him voicemail info..

On our 1 year anniversary this year, we both got tattoos--his name on my hip, my name on his arm. I hope he sees it and is reminded of my love for him, not the terrible memory of what I did.

He tells me the same thing about thinking about me with someone else...says it makes him sick. He doesn't even sleep in our bed, he sleeps on the couch. He's lost all respect for me. Understandable.

He did read Dr. Harley's book, but says that it doesn't mean anything to him. I have a hunch he's saying that because he's angry, but I don't know.

Last week he was talking to me...but now he says he doesn't want to have anything to do with me. So I have to respect his wishes. I'm just afraid that his feelings for me will go too. I never knew how much he loves me until I saw how much he was hurt by this. I just can only pray that he gives us a chance to work things out. I also hope and pray that he sees the worth of Surviving an Affair.

Keep me posted...and thanks again for your honesty and advice...I very much appreciate it.

Rae