We went to our second MC appointment tonight. The MC asked if our initimacy issues were being "supplemented" in any way. WW admitted to having an A (in so many words), but that she was not willing to talk about it.

The MC told her that we couldn't do anything until she made up her mind about the A. She's very upset and feels like she's to blame for everything in our marriage. She feels guilty that she doesn't feel "in love" with me and that I still feel in love with her. She is staying at a hotel tonight to sort things through. I'm hoping that this wasn't a set back at all. The MC gave her the name of a couselor that she could talk to, but she is so private about everything that I don't think that she'll make an appointment.

I thought about checking to see if OM is there, but I think she really wanted to think things out. Plus, I don't think I want to know if OM is there. I'm giving that to God tonight and part of me is tired of trying so hard and checking on her.

I wish everyone here a good and peaceful night. God bless you all.

rykon, why was your W upset? Usually when a WS wants to be separated to "think" it is almost always so they can carry on their affair unimpeded. Have you exposed this affair? I have a strong feeling that exposure might blow this affair apart real quick given your W' discomfort at the mere mention of it.

P.S. that is very good that your MC pressed this issue. Hiding the affair helps it survive.

I have thought about telling her parents about this. She is really close to her folks, but I just don't know if I can do that. I think that she would hate me for it.

I dropped off her badge for work and she gave me a huge kiss. She left a message on my voice-mail asking me if I'd want to go out on a date with her tonight. This is the first real outwardly gesture that she's given me since Dday. I'm cautiously optimistic. I'm hoping that she has made a decision, but I'm not going to push it.

She just seems to be pushing everyone away. She feels like she has been doing things for everyone else but her for a long time. I just don't understand why she won't talk about it to the people who are closest to her.

I've got an appointment with the Harley's tomorrow. I'm going to make sure that I'm going through plan A correctly. After seeing how she dealt with a little exposure last night, I'm starting to wonder if a little more exposure wouldn't get her to stop running (at least that's what she's doing from my point of view) and face our problems.