Haven't gotten a lot of responses lately, but it still helps me to write on here. Today is day 3 of N/C & my emotions are on a rollercoaster ride. I keep reading other posts & it helps me to see things from the BS's point of view...I just read Noodle's post & it hit me to realize that my relationship caused people to feel that way. How can I cause such pain to another human being? I've been so focused on the pain that I caused in my own heart/life that it's clouded any compassion for anyone else. I'm sorry. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> Haven't gotten a lot of responses lately,</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Maybe because you have so many threads. Just a triple post joke. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Good for you that you are in NC. Tough, but you can do it. I am a FWW. Withdrawal right now does not feel good, but in the near future it will be glorious!!!!!!!

Hang in there. Keep posting and keep reading. Reading the BS helped me out also. I wasn't all too foggy, but what fog was around it helped clear it.

Don't go back, keep focused on what is right.

KY

Not sure you're whole story, but I'm glad to hear that you are able to see the consequences of your actions. I know it must hurt, but this is a necessary step. It's up to you to now take steps to become the type of person you can be proud of.

....feeling so much pain after day 3 of NC is a sign that you have true remorse for your A and that the fog may already be lifting. Knowing where you are may be more important than knowing where you are going. Do you really know where you want to go?

Yes, I know where I want to go, though at times I forget. I want to have a happy family w/ my H. I want to love my H. I want to have beautiful children. My emotions are up & down constantly. I go from wanting OM to wanting death to anything & everything! I know that someday I will want my H again...I'm so thankful for the other WS's that have been posting on here. I'm sorry to the BS that you have to read the "foggy" (stupid) things that I write...I can't wait to be free of the fog, but alot of times I don't want the fog to lift. I am such a basketcase!

I sit here & cry when I read others' stories or responses to mine.

I am keeping myself busy in anything but calling/contacting OM.

My H is being so patient w/ me! We really need MC, but that is difficult while we're so far away from eachother. I have so much to say & so much advice to ask, but I'm very tired & emotional right now & I'll end up putting my foot in my mouth more...