Hey all,
Well went home last night eve of my birthday and
decided to ask WW a black and white question. Does she want me or Om. WW stated she wants herself, told her this was not part of the answer. Again asked got same response, i replied the same thing back. Finally third time asked and WW hesitated and stated that she wanted OM. <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />
WW states that i just don't get it that she has been falling out of love with me over last 3 years and that i have no love in my heart for you now. That she is tired of pretending to have those feelings for me when she doesn't.
I had never felt so rejected and alone in all my life. Cannot believe WW would choose someone who had only known her for 9mo. to someone she has known for 20years. Again WW states that she does not know what future will hold with OM or me but nothing i say will change her mind, she is bound and determined to go. I am giving up and throwing in the towel. I have bent over backwards and kissed my behind to try to save this marriage and all it has been is one sided. I will right my plan B letter as one last futile attempt and give it to her the day she leaves. This letter will have my personal time line though i cannot wait forever for her to come out of this fog and start thinking with her head instead of her heart. WW states that she doesn't expect me to wait this wouldn't be fair. and hopes i can find someone to make me happy someone that can treat me like a wife should.
I told her I thought i did,but i guess i didn't find out until 20yrs later that i was wrong.
I told her right now all i can do is try to make this house a happy memory for you.
I stated i am only the father of your kids. So now you will have to turn to OM to meet you needs.
I will be cordial to her d/t kids but for right now that is as far as it will go.
She is in such a fog over this OM that she has her future all planned out with him even after he is deployed.
She disgust me in the fact that she would chose him only knowing him for 9mo. vs. me who she has known since High School.
So tonight she still plans on celebrating my Bday. She even woke me up on the coach this morning hugged me and cried stating that it was hard to believe i am 40, wish me a good day and left. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" />
So tonight i will put on my happy face at least for my darling kids and pretend that life is going to get better.
Happy Birthday to me!! <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />
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