i'm a former WW and now have complete forgivness from my husband and family but I can't seem to get past forgiving myself and feeling like God has not forgiven me. I posted on another thread about getting back my relationship with God but for some reason i'm feeling like he is not there for me anymore. i'm from a small town and have tried to get back in church but I feel like somebody will see me and think, there she is, how could she do that to that wonderful man(meaning my husband). My affair has been over for more than 3 years but all of a sudden the stigma i feel is overwhelming to me right now, i'm feeling so much shame for how my life has changed in all this time, i want to be respected and looked up to as i was before, i am a different person and i want my Lord back........ How can i make myself feel his love and forgivness?