Hello everyone, you are all right, all i should need is my families love and forgivness and i will really try, i have been reading the link from foreverhers many times over and i'm going to try and do somethings, like doing acts of kindess, reach out to people i feel look down on me, get involved in a Church and commit myself to faithfully attending, pray more, i asked God last night to really help me see the good in myself.

My faimly is my life and a few things latley have gotten me feeling pretty bad, my daughter turned 18 and i love her so much and i'm so afraid shes going to grow up and leave me, my son and daughter-law are moving to northern calif. and i'll miss them so much, i know my husband and I are really clingy parents and we are trying to work on that, our children are who we would rather spend time with than anyone, maybe with all that going on is why i'm feeling so bad about myself, i think maybe i'm just thinking alot about when i was in my ema that they were not the center of my life at all times like they should have been.

No just learning I'm not doing anything to feel guilty for, just alot of left over guilt. Thank-you all of you for your help and encouragment, it really has helped me.

Tummytuck I'm so sorry for what your going thru, i don't know if i should give you any advice about your husband but it does sound like he not in recovery, that he is probably still in some sort of contact, sorry... please contact me if you want.