The mortgage guy called. Let's just say he's cooked up a pretty good deal for me.

Only barrier is my wife's desire for cash.

I'm trying to relax, but the tension is like nothing I've ever felt. Surreal. Not pleasant. I'll be a rock tomorrow though. I'm not going to frown and glare, but I am gonna fight for myself.

GC

gc:

Do what you said, but consider adding something like this:

hcii, when he saw his WW in DV court for the last time, when the judge said it was final, said 2 her: "Thank you for the best of the last 14 years." He wasn't angry or bitter, he was just grateful for the good they had. His W broke down in tears.

...but then within a couple of months, she remarried - NOT 2 the OM! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" />

hcii's doing very well, last I heard <img border="0" title="" alt="[Cool]" src="images/icons/cool.gif" />

-ol' 2long

2long... I'm angry. There's no denying it. I have compassion for my W, but she's trying to hurt me here. I have to use my anger only when I need it for protection.

No sighing
" frowning
" eye-rolling
" tooth-sucking
" glaring
" lip-biting
" knuckle-cracking (especially my thumbs)
" sarcasm
" sputtering
" tsking
" head shaking
" whining

...

GC

You are doing great despite the odds...keep going GC...so it will be all over... <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

I hope......

You get enough rest
that things go your way in court
for relief from the pain of wondering
that you find God, and know he loves you.

I hope lots of other things too, but those for you tonight.

SS

I pray for the same things SS said and that you will continue to be able to look back and not regret the actions you've taken because what sparrow does is her choice and she has to live with it.

you can do this, hugs and prayers, God Bless, RR

We're here lifting you up today, GC.

Courage my friend.

- Kimmy

Thanks everyone. I just slept for 11 hours. I dreamed the sparrow came back and said she'd do anything to fix our M. She agreed to everything. We missed our court appearance because we were together, talking about how to start over.

When I woke up, I wasn't all that disappointed.

Well, lots to organize...

GC

praying for you!!

Thinking of you today - I bet you'll surprise yourself with your strength!

GC,

Let us know how it goes. Thinkin' of you and prayin' for you today.


CJ

GC,

Let us know how it goes. Thinkin' of you and prayin' for you today.


CJ

All set... just trying to decide if I should wear my ring. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

Thanks for the good thoughts everyone. I'll post later.

GC

I got a 5 gal bucket of strength, and fotrutide on sale. I'll send you some across the fiber optic lines - maybe it'll even come to your cell phone while you are in court.

SS

Back from court.

God was I nervous. I walked down the hall and there she sat. She looks awful. Her eyes are black, her hair just hangs there. She gave me a small, closed-mouth smile, and I didn't return it. I wanted to, but I couldn't. I just looked her in the eyes and then sat down.

I woke up angry with her, but now I just feel terribly sad for her. She looks diminished. She looks whittled down to nothing. I don't feel sad for myself right now at all. I'm not going to lose my house. I'm not going to lose much of anything, except for her.

Yeah, she's hurt me more than I ever imagined someone would hurt me, and she's the last person I'd have thought would do it. But all my tears are for her right now. Don't tell me I'm wonderful for feeling that way. <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />

GC

Okay, I won't tell you are wonderful. But you ARE a very kind soul.

I'm glad you're not loosing your house.

((GC))

Okay.

You are VIR2OUS for feeling that way.

See? Wasn't my choice of words 'wonderful?' <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

-ol' 2long

Don't tell me I'm wonderful for feeling that way.

OK, but I find myself thinking that you are not a big jerk. Is that all right?

Looks positive overall. When you are up to it, let us know a little more.

Hope some relief starts to filter down, and that you can rest properly tonight.

All the best,

SS

GC I am glad you kept your house and stuff. Thats natural justice at play and a worry removed from your mind.

I am so sad that you had to see your baby living in a dark place.

GC remember that she dug the hole, filled it with Sh*t and jumped on in. She can climb out when she wants.

You gave her every chance.

Be sad for her, but don't ever think it snot her own deliberate doing.

{{{{GC}}}}

Thanks guys.

Nothing was decided today, except that the lawyers will conference call with the judge on April 1 (!) about progress on reaching a settlement, if one has not been reached by then.

My lawyer is sending me to see a mortgage person to work out a few scenarios where I mortgage some cash for the sparrow, but she said the court will never force me to sell to satisfy my wife's desire for cash, nor will they force me to have an impossible cashflow situation.

GC