After I wrote that last post about just being sad something happened. OM still had some stuff of mine that I kind of need, so I had someone else do the contacting. They called & he didn't answer (thinking it was me) & they left him a message. He called back saying my stuff was on the way. I feel so stupid, but I feel like it took me back to square 1. Here I am crying like a baby! Please forgive me, but I miss him sooo much! Just when I thought I was doing well... <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />

It hurt that he didn't answer, thinking it was me, but that's what he's supposed to do. I should be proud of him being strong like that. I just wish it didn't hurt so much! I think that it's going to hurt to receive my things soon. Will I one day be able to look back & be thankful that we were both true to nc? I just want to pick up the phone...I'm gonna get out of the house & find someone to cry to. I'm in desperate need of encouragement.