Well, I finally let him know. I've given up on him completely.

Suprisingly I'm not even upset. He's chosen to live his life without me. It's taken me a while to come to terms with it but now I'm okay with it.

Oh, I am so sorry! I can relate. I am almost there myself. I am new so won't go on. But everyone here has fantastic advice and support.

BS 53
WH 43
DD12
2nd D-Day Sep 04

Hey Ivory...I can relate to how your feeling. I am sick of living in limbo while being treated much less than a friend or wife by my WH. My d-day was within 3 days of yours (5/22/04) so we both have being sitting waiting, wondering, hoping for 5 months...almost 1/2 year!!! It is hard to believe.

These past 5 months have been the worst of my life because of WH. There hasn't been one day without tears and I resent WH for this. No divorce papers have been filed and I am not sure I have the strength to file a divorce I don't really want....there is still a tiny part of me that hopes that the man I fell in love with will reappear so that we can rebuild our marriage and strengthen our bond.

BUT in the meantime, the evil excuse of a man that now exists has NO chance of earning my respect, my trust and is NOT worthy of being married to me. I have a feeling divorce papers will be filed before the holidays if this evil person still exists in the body of the man I love so dearly. I sure do dream of a different, more happy holiday scenario though. I guess more time will tell where my heart takes me.

Have a nice weekend,

-K

Me: 28 yo FW
Him: 30 yo WH
Married: 3.5 years
His Affair: 4 months last fall, ended 1/04; he dropped bomb and left 5/04...been separated ever since. Have been in Plan A. No divorce papers filed thank god.

kjb - did things go okay in Kona?
GC

Sorry, Ivy.... forgot whose thread this was.

Your H is a little boy. It's very inspiring to see how far you've come since your dark days in July. You're gonna be fine, sister. You will be amazed when you see the better things that are out there waiting for you.

GC

I am sorry Marisa. You have been thru a lot and you seem to be doing much better now. Hang in there and just be 100% sure that this is what you want before u do it. Like Gray saying your husband is a little boy. Maybe that is why he is attracted to what he is. Sad.

So.... Ivory! Hi! Long time no chat. I'm so glad you're doing better. Keep it up, and keep focused on your own life. I'm sad to see your marriage end -- but I'm glad that you're coming through it so strong.

So tell me -- what are you going to do to make sure that the NEXT person you're involved with is worth your love and commitment?

JJ, I'm glad you are finally moving on as well. You have been so helpful during the toughest time I was going through. Thank you.

Juke, yes this is what I want now. My LB$ has been empty for some time now.

I'm not sure how to protect myself yet but I'm sure I'll find out somehow.

You're welcome, ivory -- and please, how about an update on everything else in your life? Or did I miss that part somewhere?