My story has not changed much in the past few weeks. WW moved out 19SEP04 and we have been in touch. Our MC is almost over, next Tuesday the sepperation agreement is being turned over to the lawyers after we sign it. I am quite relieved, as I think the arraingment is going as well as it can.

Now for the pain:
My daughter has develpoed a mysterious stomcah illness. It is quite random and I think it borders on 'all in her head' but it is such a cute and lovable head, it is killing me. I think we have to call the doctor.

My WW has been telling me she does not want a D, the she did not leave me to be with the OM, that she miss' our house, garage, garbage disposal, fireplace, all her old friends, all her family and me. She has been will to engage is SF, frankly I have been willing too. I asked her the other day if she is still in a PA with the OM, she got mad and I said I took that as a yes. She proposed us 'hooking up' and I told her not if she is still physical with the OM. She turned and walked away. I thanked her for being honest, told her that at least I can think about trusting her again and asked her to please tell the OM to die.

She still likes to hug and kiss a little, but I now I feel like I am the OM in her new relationship!!!!! I think all physical stuff must end between us.

I want to go to plan B, but that implies that I want her back. I do want her back, but I think I want the marriage back more than her. I could marry about anyone at this point and be happy. Well, maybe not anyone <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Her mom told me the OM was at her apt when she went over to babysit on Wednesday. The WW is lying to her mom and me at least a little.

I am so mad at her I could spit. Wait, I just did. Hmmmm, did not feel better and now I have a mess to clean up.

Not sure what I expect to hear back, maybe nothing, but I just want to get past all this crap.

Thanks for being here.

I'm still here! That ol' pesky SS. I was just thinking about you these past few days, almost called you out.

I think you are doing just fabulous. I think you are right on about the SF thing. If nothing else, she might want to get tested for STD's before doing stuff with you again. You never know. Horrible experience.

Anyway, she is waffling. Fence-sitting, and cake-eating. Your love for her could be decreasing, although you are kinda all over with your thoughts on that. Which is fine. I have been there myself. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Your sitch is looking VERY ripe for Plan B, if you ask me. Especially since you have the separation agreement going. Your Plan B letter should include your stipulations for her to come back to the M. NC, MC, whatever you need. Those were my stipulations. I didn't have to go to Plan B, but I was on the day he called me up and asked me to join his next IC session, after he had walked out on our 3rd MC session. And that all worked out for the best. But I was at the end of my Love Bank supply.

It is good she misses all that stuff you mentioned. Plan B will have her missing it more, I think. Then the OM will be responsible for ALL her EN's, and that is ususally when the fantasy begins to crack and crumble. What your WW is lacking is proper motivation. Plan B could give her that.

I am sorry to hear about your DD. Perhaps after your daughter sees the doc, you could speak privately with the doc, and catch him up on all that's going on a home. My DS had a similar "headache" problem.

Be the best daddy you can right now. Be their rock for them to hold on to in these turbulent seas they have found themselves in. Play a game with them each night you have them, and laugh together. They need to know that they will be happy again, no matter what happens.

*HUGS*

Spidey

ps, just so you don't feel bad, I spit over here, too. Except I never learned to spit, and it just kinda dribbled down the front of my face and shirt, so, I'm off to change! At least I don't have to clean the floor! Gotta find the blessing somewhere, right?!? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />