Hey Suzanne - I'm still here... got another meeting in 30 minutes... How are you doing this evening?

Hi RIF,

Oops, sorry I missed you. By the time I posted this you are probably already in another meeting. Where are you BTW? In another time zone obviously, but where? Anyway, I am doing okay this evening (morning). Ativan is my new best friend. Really takes the edge off, doesn't help my sleeping much though.

Thanks for asking. Take care. I amd going to go to bed and try to sleep. Nite all!!!!

Suzanne

Moring, I'ville <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Well, today is the day. In 5 hours, I leave to move back to Victoria. Still no go as far as contacting the CO/XO. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" /> BUt, I talked to someone and they said that it is not unusual for the ship to investigate first. THen contact the non-military person. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" /> Of course, I will still contact them but I will wait until next week, I think. THat way, it will be enough time for them to have started. Heck, I might do it tomorrow. WTH! At least it won't be long distance.

AAHH! I am stressed to the max! For the first time since 2nd D-Day, I will be in the same city as the Dork! Add DDs confusion and anger, and I see a really rough road ahead. NUTS! I thought I was prepared for this but obviously not. <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />

And, in a couple of hours, I have to disconnect the computer to move it with me. Serious withdrawal for 12 hours or so.

Okay enough serious stuff. Robby, you back home yet? When will the decision be announced? Coffee's on.

bob said: </font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> all while its active the A is a source of extreme pleasure to WS </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I think you're making a generalization here Bob based on some things squiddy said a long time ago. Remember she was in the fog at the time. Until she is able to truthfully talk to you, you may never know. NOW tells me that she has thoughts that have gone back and forth from good to bad. So until you get to the point where squid opens up more and tells all, you may never know. In the mean time, when these thoughts hit, pray to God that he releases you from satan's grip.

Best of luck mate, you'll be home soon.

OMG: I just read my personal horrorscope!
</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Typically, you know when to quit, for even though you can be quite logical, you’re not one to go down fighting a losing battle. This time, however, you may not want to let go. You have a glimmer of hope and you really believe the sky is going to open and everything will work out perfectly. Well, it may not be perfect, but you can still surprise them all with your original tactics. </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">That is so close to the truth! Or is it denial? Guess it depends on who you listen to, right? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" />

Morning all!

FAA: Good luck! You can do this. Try to relax (I know that's not easy), but if you can calm yourself down it will help you get through this. Post when you can. hugz2u {{{{{Fightingaa}}}}}

Su: Welcome aboard. RIF is deployed somewhere in the middle east. He returns home in about 8-9 weeks. He's our rock.

Hi Suzanne - I'm in Afghanistan...we're 9.5 hours ahead of Eastern Standard time and 10.5 hours ahead of Central Standard Time... Makes for some really weird hours <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

Hey FAA - Good luck with your move and your situation... you're in my prayers...

Hey RH - How's it going?

Morning, RH. Relax? What is that? That is like asking me to quit drinking coffee! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

But, me being the eternal optimist at heart; I find that the more I dread the situation and force myself to face it, the less things come as a surprise. Does that make sense? It is rarely as bad as I picture it. Maybe I have an overactive imagination for picturing the worst scenario first.

Hi, Su. RIF you still around?

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by Recovering H:
<strong> He returns home in about 8-9 weeks. </strong></font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Oh how I WISH !!!! 3.5 more months to go... but hey, I got to be home for my 18th wedding anniversary and for Christmas... so I'm not complaining. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Hey FAA - I'm still here... done with all my meetings for the day and just hanging out in the office... <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

FAA: Don't read those horoscopes. They're so generic that they're bound to get something right. You're above that. Now hang in there.

I LOVE those horoscopes. Generic or not, they are entetaining to me. I don't take as as the be-all end-all. But, as in this case, it does describe my sitch. I am fighting a battle. I know that the outcome is very likely to not be what I hope or desire. BUT, I do have a few, well, lots of surprises left in me. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

So, I take it as a "go get 'em Tiger" kind of encouragement thing. Not as good as MB by any means. BUt, I will take encouragement and validation where I can get them.

THanks, RIF. I know in my heart of hearts, even in the depths of my sorrow, that I am doing the right thing. ANd I know that no matter the outcome, I will survive and be a better, and wiser, person for this. Just wish I didn't have to learn life lessons this way. <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> "go get 'em Tiger" </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Well, if you're looking at it that way, then ok.

Now go get 'em Tiger!

bob, thanks for the kind words. no need to apologize for anything you said either. as far as the stmt you made about the A being intense pleasure for the FWS. not true in my case either. i can elaborate if you want.

hi everyone else, i have to get kids up and off to school now...

Bob, </font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> I wonder sometimes if FWS truly realise the hurt they cause BS though. </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I really don't like this statement. Of course we can't feel your pain, but we see it. I'm not a monster, I'm sympathetic and caring, and I know I have hurt my H, and I hate that I did. It is hard to breath knowing you messed up so bad, knowing you have hurt somebody, the love of your life, to such a depth.

This statement just makes me feel like I'm not truly forgiven. It makes me feel that the BS wants me to always feel sinful.

I don't want to carry this sin for the rest of my life, I don't want my ST to feel this deep pain for the rest of his life. I want to learn and move on. I don't want to be caught here, in this world of infidelity for the rest of our years.

I have seen the pain. Bob, really, what is worse, feeling the pain, or causing the pain????

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Please, don't feel bad for your post, I adore you, JMPOV.

KY

Morning {{{Jelly}}}! On countdown for me and procrastinating about tearing down the computer.

MPOV on this? IF, WH ever realizes what he has done and how he hurt US, I can forgive him. Trust is another thing that has to be rebuilt. AND IMO, you have regret, empathy, and understanding AND are working on rebuilding. That is the operative word here, Jelly. You WANT to make things better. AND you are WORKING to make it happen. So, what more is there? IMO, nothing. Most of life's lessons are hard won. AND that makes you appreciate something you either lost or almost lost.

Hang in there. We love you!

* Jen - nothing you have ever said has caused me to be sad. I posted up my 'picture' feelings because that all I seem to think about when I'm alone in my hotel room. And it IS a stupid think to think about, I can't change it and only needless pain comes from it.

And you're right - I gave it three months to plan B, then three months to somehing else then... <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

A new BS can't imagine feeling so terrible for year s, I NEEDED to have a shorter term checkpoint. Now I'm not thinking in that way.

You are not responsible for my current sadness, Jen, I am. {{{{jen}}}}

* Recovering H said :
I think you're making a generalization here Bob based on some things squiddy said a long time ago. Remember she was in the fog at the time. Until she is able to truthfully talk to you, you may never know. NOW tells me that she has thoughts that have gone back and forth from good to bad. So until you get to the point where squid opens up more and tells all, you may never know. In the mean time, when these thoughts hit, pray to God that he releases you from satan's grip.


So you think infidels don't enjoy being in an affair at the time VERY MUCH indeed ? If not why do they do it? SAA says the feelings of love, enjoyment even SF are unbelievably intense. Even though FWS come to regret it, that surely does not remove the fact that it was a source of pleasure to them at one time ? Like a recovered junkie - they HATE heroin and regret taking it but that doesn't mean the high wasn't pleasurable.

* fl-T2M - I would like to hear why your did not enjoy your afair but..really...I don't. It would hurt you, hurt me and I have alreadypulluted I'ville's happy today. Thanks for the offer though, appreciated <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

* KY, not my intention at all darl'. I should not have generalised. I should have said " I do not think Squid realises the depth of hurt she caused me". Not FWS generally. You know for sure the damage done, AND you have taken ALL STEPS To put it right !

Squid ain't yet.

Sorry I posted those words, I might have known they'd hurt some of my most treasured friends <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />

Sorry <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />

Its just that....I've gotten used to living with Godzilla in my living room, but sometimes I notivce he's there and I panic, right ?

{{{{{FWS friends}}}}} sorry if I made you sad <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> Please, don't feel bad for your post, I adore you, JMPOV.
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I generally have the most inaccurate horoscopes possible. H was deployed for a year and I constantly got horoscopes telling me about all the romance I'd have that night and travel. I'd go months without leaving a 30 mile radius of my home.

I have better luck using the magic phrase on fortune cookies.

Su,

Belly button lint collecting is a hobby, not a job. We'd have to make you the Belly Button Lint Museum Director or some sort of scientist for it to be an occupation.

Dobie

Morning Dobie. The fortune cookies for me are as close to the mark as the horoscopes are for you. THings like "you are venerated for your ancient wisdom" WTH? Ancient? Yes, I got that in a cookie. My kids still tease me about that one!