Kind of weird...last night, I basically took a journey back in time and reviewed all the wonderful memories WH and I have had together in our 5 year relationship in a very visual dream. I don't know if the fact that he proposed to me 4 years ago at this time has anything to do with my dream but I have to admit I can smile at all that we done together. And, for the first time in a long time, I didn't wake up crying...not sure if I am starting to accept his bad choices or I am just ready to move on???

Yes, I am crushed/devastated by what turn our marriage has taken but I am no longer in control of what life WH wants to live with OW. I tried my best to salvage our marriage but WH is not willing to give us a shot...what else can I do? All I can do is accept the positive we have experienced together and also accept the positive that continues in my life and try to maintain a happy face for the future, whether my journey with WH ends at this crossroad or continues on.

-K

Me: 28 yo FW
Him: 31 yo WH
Married: 3.5 years, together 5 years
His Affair: 4 months last fall, new affair (or perhaps the same woman) with unknown timeline???
D-Day: May 22, 2004; WH immediately left me.
Plan A thru Oct, WH signs papers Nov, Plan B begins, I sign papers post Thanksgiving...divorce will become finalized right around our 4 year wedding anniversary <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />