You agree to watch the kids so the OM will not. The WW has been telling you that she has not been seeing much of the OM, the MIL is telling you that the WW is telling the MIL that she is very confused and does not know what she wants.

Then, at her apartment, you find a note the OM left your WW and it is addressed to Suzie, squishy, squeaky ... and it is signed, 'your bucking bronco'. After the red haze that comes over your vision clears up, you, of course, go through all the drawers of the WW dressers, and low and behold you find:
A super duper battery operated "pocket rocket" for the ladies with two controllers some sort of french tikly thing and ashiny silver plug, various lubricants, some rubber ties, a book about japenese bondage and all the old outfits that you used to get to see your wife in. In very nice clean piles by the bed side. So, you ask, what do you do?

Why, you do two loads of laundry and put new sheets on your cheating, no good, scum bag wifes bed so she and the OM can have some fun in your old bed and think about how great it would be to have a hammer and one of those mind ereasing rays like in the men in black movies!!!!!

Well,I also moved stuff around ao she knows I found it, left some wierd notes in the bondage book "don't your marriage vows mean anything?" and "remember till death do us part?" and wrote a scathing letter telling her to go away and never come back.

Then you take the letter back, crumple it up, leave the lesser notes and proof that you found the OM clothes drawer in your old dresser and call your counsler to set up an appointment for the next day ASAP.

Now, I am home alone with my cat, playing Halo 2 as loud as my 250 watt amplifer will play it drinking beers and waiting to pass out.

I figured that Halo would take me away from it all, but I need to figure out how to control my thoughts and emotions better. Anybody got any ideas?

I knew that the OM and my WW were in a PA, hell, she was pregent!! But to find the toys, juices, books and, the outfits that were for you, was too much. I need plan B as soon as the seperation papers are final. Which BTW my lawyer told me were repulsive with respect to the way I was being treated.

I am really starting to hate this situation. I am taking two ambions tonight.

Well, if your still there, thanks and please tell me it will get better.

Canthishelp.....

I do truly feel your pain with you.

But beers and Ambien DO NOT go together. Please find someone you can talk to and vent tonight....

I guess that's why you came here.

Your situation is very difficult for you (we all have the same difficulties in this). Please try to think of something you can do for yourself to lift your spirits a little (alcohol is a depressant, and Ambien will enhance that).

The pain will lessen in time. But, until it does, get a heavy bag and punch the daylights out of it. Do something to release your anger and frustration. Workout. Run. Kick pillows.

We all know exactly how you feel..... I will remember you in my prayers tonight (if that's okay with you).

K

Sorry, double post K

<small>[ November 18, 2004, 10:42 PM: Message edited by: k72172 ]</small>

This too will pass. There's the good days and the crappy days. Lots of crappy days. Mind zappers would be good. Please don't make it a habit to drink to oblivion. Halo is suppose to be quite good.

CTH,

I don't believe I've posted to you before. Your thread about brought me to tears.

You will get through this, and you will be happy again. Please believe this.

When my mind gets to focusing on painful things, I usually try to replace them with prayers. Or with bible versus. If you are not a believer it probably sounds hokey. But God will bring you peace if you ask Him too.

Like this "God, please take away my pain. Please take my burdens, as they are to much for me to carry right now. Please lift me into your arms, and bring me peace. Amen"

And when no words will come, memorize and recite the 23rd Psalm. These things worked for me when my pain was unbearable, now they are habit and I don't have very many bad days.

Hang in there Canthishelp. Happiness will be your friend again.

Expecially after Plan B is implemented. Out of site, out of mind. It's true.

HC, yes Halo is quite good if your into saving the human race from galactic destruction!!! I am.

Weaver: You have helped me in the past, I took a few weeks off and am amazed at the new names here.
I do struggle with faith in an omniscent being that allows pain (free will my butt), but your idea is a great one! I will look up and try to find comfort in Paslm 23. I am trying to train myself to think about the good things in my life or at least focus on ANYTHING other than my WW and her bucking bronco.

What really makes me mad is I no longer like my name. You know how when you know people that you do not like, you start to not like their name? Well, I am like that and the OM has the same name as me! Now, I do not like my name, or my sons name! Luckly I call my son Trae (he is a 3rd) and do not talk about myself in the 3rd person, but my personalized coffee cup hurts to look at.

I told my WW today that I can no longer go to her apartment to watch the kids and she is no longer welcome here at my (our old) house. The out of sight out of mind thing is going to have to help me.

I am going to see my IC today and that will hopefully help...

At least we won 2 out of three volleyball games last night!

Well I do feel your pain and hope everything goes better for you in the long run. You are a better man than me though, There was one night three weeks ago my WW walked out on me and the children and she went right to the om's. After I took my daughter there to confront them, the om deinied her being there, they hid her car a few miles away. I went home and shredded all of her sexy night clothes...HUGE LB but it felt good. hope things get better for you.

HEY!!

The pain that you feel, you only can heal, by living, you have to go on living....I think you mean Spike

I outed you! I outed you! nyah nyah nyah nyah nyah..btw..S7 is now available on dvd. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Noodle

I was hoping you would post back to let us know you were in a better frame of mind tonight.

I keep thinking about what you said about the name thing. Now that has got to be a hard one. I suggest you think of a different name for OM, and block your mind from associating your name with his.

I have my DD this weekend and must get ready for a fun filled night of Rugrats, Harry Potter and Funky Fried Chicken. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Hope you get a chance to read Delean's (aka Kimmy, aka Niosgirl thread) she is using scripture to ease her troubles and find peace. Nerly posted something on Idiotville about putting what is broke in God's hands and YL posted some good stuff too. Might want to read, if you get lonesome and that ole fear stops by tonight.

weaver

<small>[ November 19, 2004, 05:30 PM: Message edited by: weaver ]</small>

Hey canthishelp! Long time no-read-from! Sorry all is not going better for you. *sigh*

I AM glad to hear that the separation thingie is getting close to happening. I AM glad to hear you have established firm boundaries for yourself, with regard to what you will allow yourself to be around, and what you won't.

Even though it might not feel like it, these are very positive steps, IMO.

All of my boys (including the "tall" one I call H) cope with stress well using video games, loud music, and . . . they just drink lots of Coke. Sugar buzz. I hope you were able to finally find sleep last night, and didn't feel too ooky this morning from your "coctail."

Keep posting! I think of you often. You can IM me if you ever see me online. It's a little better form of communication than posting. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Spidey