Well, for those that know me or have followed my story, tomorrow it is quits. Our divorce will be final in the Florida county municipal courts at roughly 10:10 am. The room this will take place in, is ironically right down the hall from the very room we first got our marriage license from in the first place.

I usually try to use the board to vent, or with some clever word, or some knowledge I want to share from church, or the like.

I really do not have anything eloquent to say this time.

It is just sad. Plain and simple.

Sad how I learned so much, a little too late.

Sad that he would throw away so much.

Serendipi T:

Yes, this is a sad time indeed. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />

Although I suspect there is at least a bit of "relief" somewhere in there as well. (That its at least Over, even if this is NOT the outcome desired by You).

However, at least you will have this "knowledge" you have acquired because of your journey.... to take with you into any and all relationships you may engage in (in the future).

This sure beats what most come away from, after a Divorce... (emotional baggage, damaged soul and NO effective Plan for the future & NO Real Idea why this all happened or how it could have been prevented).

So at least your WAAY ahead in that department.

IMO all things "DO" happen for a reason.
One day you'll come to grips why this had to happen to YOU.

(But I am Sorry that it did). <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />
Night

IM fairly new here but would like to say that I feel deeply for you and hope your able to find happiness, again and soon. For we dont deserve
the people we most love to give up on us, we didnt give up on them.
Good Luck Sweetie

<small>[ November 21, 2004, 09:39 PM: Message edited by: confused04 ]</small>

SerendipiT,

So sad. At times like this no words are adequate.

My prayers for you tonight.

DipT, thinking of you. See you in I'ville. Bless your heart,

GC

<img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />


I'm sorry this is where your journey has taken you.

Sorry for you.

Sorry for your children.

My prayers to you and them.

Thank you everyone.

Well, thank goodness, I went to church last night. Thank goodness the sermon was exactly what I needed to hear (funny how that ALWAYS happens). We heard about how God uses test and trials, fire, to refine and perfect us. I keep reminding myself to be excited about what is to come. What exactly is God preparing me for?

I guess I should migrate off the GQ board. I do not really belong here among all these folks who are diligently hoping to rebuild their marriages.

Hope really is a powerful force. And while I cannot claim I am without all hope of my future, I can say that my hope for a reconciled marriage is almost gone. And maybe that is ok...but I remember how hard it was to let that hope die. I think I grieved the passing of my hope for reconciliation more than the actual A itself.

Thank you MB for walking me through the past year+. I would not have made it without you.

Funny...I think you were, along with God, my biggest sources of hope!

{{{{{{{{{{{{MB}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

My thoughts and prayers are with you!
{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}

Huggggsss...to you girl.

Despite everything...you sound strong and ready for whatever is coming... <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

{{{{{{Dipti}}}}}} much love to you. Karen

{{{{{{{DipiT}}}}}}}}}} I'm thinking about you today. Don't leave GQll. Your wisdom and humor is still needed here, and I for one would miss you. Love, CV

DipiT, my Squid worked as a crash nurse - in ITU.

She would sometimes hold a patient barely alive all night with her team, CPR, paddles, adrenaline, sutures, drugs MORE CPR, adrenaline, paddles, sutures ANOTHER BLEEDER! CVT, CPR etc etc. At some point the patient dies. He is too broken to recover.

Theres usually a very sad quietness afterwards, she tells me. The scene usually isn't pretty. Blood and snot everywhere.

But after every Crash death theres a debrief. Lessons learned are documented and shared. New skills learned and old skills refined are notified.

People pray and resolve that this death was sad, but not in vain.

Effort is NEVER wasted in saving something precious, even if it cannnot be saved dipity.

Learn from this. Grow from this and your heart will be stronger for it.

This death - of your M - was not a total loss. Not if you adopt your experience and use it.

All blessings sis'.

{{{{DIPiT}}}