Well, I get my day in court tomorrow. Not looking forward to that. Hopes of reconciliation are fading very fast... I guess I'll at least get closure. I hope things go smoothly. WW seems ok with the arrangements. I'm coming out ahead, but I still wish we could've worked things out. I should be happy that things will finally be over and I can move on, but there is a lot of emptiness I feel...

On a lighter note... My WW's birthday is tomorrow also. I don't know if I should get her a birthday card. She'll probably think I'm being a jerk, but if I could write something nice, she may at least feel a little better. I'm not sure if she is gonna be happy or just ok with all this...

I feel a little bad for her right now. She is struggling financially because she kicked OM out a few weeks ago. I would think I'd be happy that she isn't doing well after everything she's put me and my girls through, but I don't feel that way. I feel kinda bad... Especially during this time of year...

Well, I'll write some more tomorrow. Maybe I'll feel better <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> or worse <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" /> then.... <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" />

Being the second time through this... we tried about 6 months ago but we weren't ready, court actually went fairly well. We actually joked a little during the hearing. We had to raise our right hand to be sworn in and I raised the right arm and W said the other right and I almost changed hands... It was kinda funny and I almost laughed. I guess it was better than crying...

I did give my W a birthday card. It was short and to the point. Even though she didn't say much about it, I think she liked getting it. I think I'm gonna give my kids some money so they can take her out to dinner.

I feel upset--not sure the exact emotions, but I also feel some relief, like I finally have closure. I am teary now, however and it hurts thinking and writing.

I still hope one day when all the fog burns off that we can maybe work through some of the hurt we both feel. I know us BSs go through a lot of pain, but I'm sure our WSs go through a lot also. Maybe not quite the same, but still a lot of hurt and pain...

I want to thank all of you who have gotten me through this whole mess. It's been a tough experience, but I think I've come out a better person because of it...

LWH,

Just wanted to say I am sorry you had to go through such a painful process such as a D. You sound like you are handling yourself quite well. Keep being the best dad and person you can be.

lwh:

Keep coming here, it'll be good for you. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

I think you did the right thing with the card. Like you said, especially this time of year.

If nothing else, you're also doing the right thing by being civil with her. After all, you're still parents 2gether.

Try 2 take it easy for a while and not think about relationship-building.

best,
-ol' 2long